(POST HAS BEEN UPDATED TO COMPLETION W SUMMARY DECEMBER 2ND 10:30 EST)
In about an hour I'll be taking 900mg of DPH just for laughs. I've tripped a lot n don't need advice or anything but I thought it might be interesting to see a live report of a huge dose that doesn't just turn into agdhfjsj after two hours lol
Tripped on the dxm DPH combo at moderate doses last night and there's a lot of residual effects still
T+ 0:00 I counted 36 pink pills and put the rest in a lockbox, and swallowed them down with a tall glass of milk.
It is roughly 11am on the east coast of the untied states and I can already see the translucent transdimensional string theory Strings that attach to living beings. I want to call it an aura, like a see through glowingness that encompasses the entire body and also attached to the tips of trees, follows cats around as clouds of flies, anything living it seems.
Gonna fuck off and wait to come up now
T+ 0:26 Shadows are darting just outside my field of view. The higher the dose the more active they seem. And more brazen. So far nothing but flies, uncoordination, and Shadows darting around my room. Pretty excited. Also seeing that electrical twitching jelly on deeply colored surfaces.
T 0:56 I smoke a bowl and instantaneously all of the visuals just stopped. While typing they kicked in harder, I got a brain zap and suddenly everything is how it was before but stronger and more intense. Fingers feel strange, anxious floaty feeling while also feeling like I'm made of concrete. Keep seeing bugs on my in my peripheral vision tho.
These bizarre transparent mammal-like animals are taking turns observing me, filing in and out through opposite walls. Lots of them are wild pigs of some long forgotten variety. And this feels mellow I'm just chillen. Listening to music (Doseone - The Doghawk is about a DPH trip ). Getting restless. Weird how fast it came on
T+ 1:22 CNS agitation beginning. Heard my mom scream that my sister killed my kitten and before I even got up I just started scream sobbing. Eventually I got off the floor to go see, still sobbing disgustingly, and checked every room in the house for my dead cat. I kept hallucinating his corpse everywhere I looked for him, until I just gave up and cried a little until he tapped on my shoulder, and I asked him how he was doing that without human hands. He didn't say anything but seemed a bit offended so I figured it would be best to just leave it alone
T+1:28 Everytime I looked up from texting the room was progressively getting more different than it was minutes before.
My eyes are doing the 3d double vision thing like the keys won't stay in one place on The keyboard and it's all hella blurry and made of blue and red like movie glasses..
T+ 1:34 getting hard to remember. Takes longer to type. Incredible visuals all lover my phone screen. Hallucinations are creeping up on me
T+ 1:42 going to go for about a half hour and then update again
T+ 2:10 written words make no sense whatsoever. The alphabet becomes nothing but a set of permutations.
How am I gonna keep updating this lol I'm really starting to feel it. Wish me luck. I'd definitely take someone to talk to hmu
T+2:20 brain is totally blank. No severely interesting effects to report in this moment.
T+2:47
T+3:48 I think I blacked out watching TV but I feel (wrongly) almost sober again now that I'm back lol. Usually that means a fucking crazy trip when I feel sober on super high doses. It's just like waves, the way the effects run over you. A few minutes ago I couldn't make sense no matter how hard I tried, but rn I'm like basically baseline until the next wave hits and I go way the fuck out and slowly get pulled back
T+4:19 I've felt like I was completely sober for the last hour or so, until about 10 minutes ago when I started noticing that infinite sideways slide like people describe with salvia. Everything is starting to blur and swim dramatically. Watching my vision constantly readjust.
T+4:30 slowing way down and starting to shake. Hard to focus. Random delusional thoughts that don't make any sense. Just got lost in them for a few minutes after that last sentence. Love love love the self hypnosis stuff you can do with it BTW.
T+4:40 my body isn't doing what my brain tells it to, or when it does its with delay. The schizophrenic wide eyes from DXM.
T+5:09 I keep forgetting what a trip report is and what I'm doing. I think every paragraph is someone else sending me a message and I try to reply to it,
I can't keep time straight in my head anymore. It's been about 5 hours n 15 minutes.
Black spiderwebs are forming in the corners of everything lol.. It's taking a long time to process thoughts I'm gonna go trip out and update tomorrow. Xo
EDIT/UPDATE
I wrote all this out in great detail but my phone crashed. So here's the discouraged summary instead.
I blacked out of normal reality and went intone very strange trance unlike the standard lucid dream flashes of high dose DPH trips. I attribute some of these events and my knee-jerk sensory interpretations of them to the trip I took the day before on 500mg DXM and 500mg* dph. Specifically the leftover dex.
I was a static point of view in my childhood home, alone and abandoned, unable toove or look around, I was looking down from just below the ceiling of the breezeway / mudroom on a familiar driftwood plank made into a coffee table. On it was a centerpiece, what looked like a black hole, in the shape of a potato sack, full of unearthly animals making very tiny, exotic and sometimes frightening cacaphonies of unharmonious music, writhing, and deep black.
I had the intuition I had done something very very bad, and the impression that there were Shadows talking about me in another room. I realized I could move rooms, but only by blinking, which would send me toanother strangely angled POV somewhere else in the empty house.
I understood that these shadows were discussing whatever it was that I'd done. I had no idea id ever even taken any drug. This felt to the senses as complete and detailed and vivid as base sensory reality. I remembered nothing of the moments leading to this, but found I had access to all the usual memories of this life, up to about 5 days ago, which now I have back, save forth blackouts on this trip.
There was a female entity who was very sympathetic to me but also clearly dissapointed and tired. Another one was male, and he was angrier but composed and collected. Sort of an American Psycho, Handsome Devil kind of character. The charming swindler archetype if that makes sense.
He was fed up and suggesting more extreme measures to deal with whatever is done. She was temperance, sympathy, understanding, unspeakable recognition, wordless, nonconceptual familiarity. He was reason and justice, strength and work ethic, power, pride leader, intelligent and merciless. She was right and he was true.
I intuited all of this, understood it immediately and deeply. IDK what it all many now that I'm back and sober. I was reminded infinite times "WHAT YOU ATE EXPERIENCING IS A HIGHER DIMENSIONAL REALITY. IT IS BEING INTERPERETED BY YOUR THIRD DIMENSIONAL MIND IN METAPHOR SO AS TO APPEAR COMPREHENSIBLE IN TERMS OF YOUR OWN SPECIFIC KNOWLEDGE AND EXPERIENCE. IT HAS ALWAYS APPEARED TO OTHERS IN THIS WAY. IT BELIEVES THIS TO BE THE FINAL FOOLPROOF SOLUTION TO THE PROBLEM OF PERSONAL COMPREHENSION OF INFINITY IN A THREE DIMENSIONAL SPACE OCCUPIED BY ILLUSIONS AND THEIR PHYSICAL MANIFESTION. IT APPEARS THIS WAY TO MAKE OTSELF EASILY UNDERSTOOD. "
(I was drifting in and out of delerious this morning as well. This is wildly grandiose even compared to my normal babbling. I was experiencing the feeling of something being intuited, that somewhat felt like what I described. However I was being WILDLY liberal in interpreting the message and delivering it as a likely close match. I have no fucking clue man. DPH trip reports are a real case study in unreliable narrators. How can anyone be expected to relate truth to this 3 day marathon of impossible events? Don't believe me, and don't believe anyone else abt it either. But if you really knew. We can throw words at it for a million years and they will always fall flat in the presence of the immediate felt experience of the ahem Real thing.
This was all conveyed to me intuitively. I understood this the way that one understands the letter "A". A symbol. As if it were some higher dimensional language, where feelings stood for things, rather than conceptual letters in complex arrangements standing for things as in base reality.
Reminds me of Terrence McKennas ideas about the evolution of global human consciousness, and the evolution of language.. I'll need a lot more time to integrate this and everything else, so while there was a bit more, I think I'll hold off and meditate on it all throughout the day, and update once more thisevening.
Sorry for the atrocious spelling, writing, grammar, and complete disregard for syntactical conventions contained in the above text.
Gonna eat a fuckass load of French toast and masturbate like five times and then sleep for about a week.
Take care kids. Don't try this at home. Unless you're gonna try it anyway. In which case please try this at home. But more importantly don't try this. I'm still shaking, slurring, and sliding in and out of ordinary perception of experiential reality. And I'm really fucking hungry for French toast. I wanted to add more but can't be Fucked to anymore.
Thanks for reading.
TL;DR lmao
*I was on the discord talking w people in a couple places and someone told me I'd said three different doses, some higher, some lower, of dph, and was going back and forth on if I'd taken it yet. I have no idea how much I took and I didn't then either. But I was thankfully aware enough to lock up the rest. I clearly had been dosing without realizing it. DPH works her way into the deepest parts of the brain and mind, and you hardly even know she's there until she leaves and you realize you've been blacked out for hours. Insidious is the adjective that comes to mind. Siren-like. Oops I forgot this was a short footnote thank you bye