DOSE:
repeated
insufflated
Ketamine
(powder / crystals)
BODY WEIGHT:
75 kg
Ketamine is a substance that for better or worse has had a place of some prominence in my life for some time now - it hasn�t been the source of my most profound drug experiences, it�s not the most reliably enjoyable substance, it�s not the most social drug, it�s not even the safest drug - something which is becoming more and more clear recently compared to when I started doing it - but it might still be one of the most interesting substances I�ve ever done. I hope in writing this that I can convey some of my fascination with this substance, and some of the otherworldly magic as best I can through this medium - I know many people have shared experiences of this �magic�, and so hopefully some can identify.
When I started writing this document about a year ago, my introductory paragraph was as follows:
"I just flushed the last couple hundred milligrams of a bag of ketamine that I plan to make my last bag for a very long time, ever if I can help it - but at least for a good 6 months. I have a pretty good idea of the amount of K I�ve done in my life, which I estimate to be about ~90g over a 13 year period (from 2006 to now, 2019) but the majority (about ~70g) in the past 5 years. I have worked out that this averages out to about 30mg / day, which is a low amount but still basically a threshold dose every day. I don�t think that I can feel any negative effects but I do wonder if that kind of dose is likely to still lead to some long term personality changes."
Needless to say, perhaps, I did not make that my last bag ever - I honestly can�t remember now if I did even achieve a 6 month hiatus - I believe I did make it a few months at least, however, even though during this time I experimented with other dissociatives (2-OxO-PCM, 2F-DCK, Ephenidine) eventually concluding that none of them really held a candle to good old ketamine - 2-OxO-PCM / DCK came pretty close - in fact probably the closest - but this gave me a bladder scare which really put me off it, and the long, trailing comedown and day-after unsteadiness was not something I enjoyed. If it hadn�t been for these effects I would actually say 2-OxO-PCM was superior to ketamine, essentially the same �Hole Space�, but a longer duration and more potent.
Ketamine as I have said, and do say often, is a very interesting and in some ways a very beautiful drug to me - but, unfortunately, one that I have come to believe is not nearly as profound as it pretends to be. Its seductive depths, in my experience, are ultimately quite devoid of meaning, and the more I�ve used the more I find that the inscrutable, alien realms found within Hole Space are just empty mazes, an unsolvable puzzle with no cosmic treasure to be found at the center, indeed, probably no center at all.
However the thing that I enjoy the most about Ketamine, unlike any other substance I�ve done, is that it has the capacity to truly transport me to somewhere else - not just an altered version of the place I was before dosing (although it has this ability as well), but somewhere different entirely.
FIRST INTRODUCTION AND EARLY YEARS
I first used Ketamine in 2006 at a festival - I used a fairly low dose compared to what I would use now, and split a very small bag with 3 friends. I remember at this stage the effects were very much external, perceptual effects on the world - but although there were no obvious visual alterations, things did look different. I was no doubt experiencing dissociation but did not have the experience or understanding to recognise it for what it was I was no doubt experiencing dissociation but did not have the experience or understanding to recognise it for what it was