I've used dissociatives many times, but this session I intentionally aimed for a deep experience.
T+0:00 - Administered the dose. Lay back on the bed with an eye mask and headphones.
T+0:10 - Rapid onset. The room began to feel distant, as if I was sinking into the mattress. Sound became echoey and stretched.
T+0:20 - Full dissociation. My body was completely gone — I had no awareness of having physical form. I was moving through vast, architectural spaces that seemed to extend infinitely. The geometries were impossible — Escher-like stairways and corridors that folded into themselves.
T+0:30 - Time became meaningless. Each moment contained what felt like hours of experience. I encountered what I can only describe as a presence — not threatening, more like an observer. We seemed to exchange understanding without words.
T+0:45 - Slowly becoming aware of having a body again. The transition back was gradual and gentle. Motor control returned piece by piece.
T+1:30 - Mostly back to baseline. Felt dreamy and reflective. Had difficulty describing what I experienced.
T+3:00 - Completely normal. Ate dinner and reflected on the experience.
The dissociative state is profoundly different from psychedelics. There's no visual enhancement of the real world — instead, you're transported entirely elsewhere. It's fascinating but can be disorienting if you're not prepared. Would not recommend this depth without significant experience.