I want to start off by saying this is my first time doing dmt or changa and that what I feel happened was me breaking through, however I may be wrong. I also want to preface that I am severely colour blind and I am also diagnosed with ADD. (It makes sense to the story)
I had meditated before smoking to calm my nerves and allow myself to focus on what I was doing. No point doing it if my attention was to be pulled somewhere else. I had a friend with me, a girl I am backpacking with through the East coast of Australia. Anyways on to the experience
The first thing I felt was an immense amount of calmness, it was like being held as a baby after crying for hours. With my eyes open I saw little patterns against the tent sheet but nothing major, so I closed my eyes. After a minute these spiral shapes started forming before me, each one a different colour to the last. There was something different about the colours that I was seeing. It was like they were the colours I had not had the privilege of seeing before due to my colour blindness. I started to realise that this might be the case and I was hit in the face with a monsoon of emotion and thoughts and feeling became these tangible objects. I looked down and it felt like my chest had been replaced with a projector. In that, all the substance that makes up my personality was being displayed on the roof of my tent. I was trying to explain all of this while it was happening to my friend. I used the analogy of a cake. And that I am the cake, and I am now being able to see what the ingredients are that make up the cake. The essence of who I am and what I hold closest to me is being shown to me for a reason.
I stopped hallucinating but my brain continued to think. I felt compelled to say everything that came to me, like I was doing a disservice if I didn't. I would usually feel socially aware of my ADD and stop myself from saying too much, but at that point I felt comfortable with who I was and just continued to ramble. It was the first time I had no anxiety over what I was saying.
All in all I have learnt so much from this experience. I still have half of the changa left and will probably do it again. But I feel so satisfied that I am in no rush.