Substances taken within those 12 hours, in order:
- 12:15am - bk-ebdp
- 1:23am 2mg etizolam
- ~2:00am 2.5mg dex
- 4:34am 25mg 4-ho-mipt oral
- 4:37am 1-2mg 3-ho-pcp oral
- 5:20am 3mg 3-ho-pcp nasal
- 5:35am 4mg 3-ho-pcp nasal
- 5:41am 5mg 3-ho-pcp nasal
- between 9-12am I started vaping DMT residue from my pipe. I never broke through but that wasn't my intention either.
- 11:50am, no sleep so I took 0.150mg of flunitrazolam.
I couldn't sleep after that either so I went to smoke some jay's with a friend. (he picked me up)
Keep in mind that it has been a while (way over a month) since my last full trip, but my last psychedelic dose was like 25 days ago.
Yesterday I took bk-ebdp and it didn't do much for me. When I felt like I was seeing slight visuals after 3 hours and 50 minutes, I thought to myself maybe I can enhance the experience by taking some 4-ho-mipt. And boy was I right. I weighed approximately 25mg of 4-ho-mipt and ~15mg of 3-ho-pcp and split the pcp in 3 lines.
T=4:34am
t+ 0:00 - ingested ~25mg 4-ho-mipt, tossed it in my mouth and washed it down with water.
t+ 0:03 - ingested ~1-2mg 3-ho-pcp
t+ 0:04 - smoked a spliff I had pre-rolled.
Then I went to lay in bed and this is where I stayed during the whole duration of the trip. The visuals were already setting in while I was smoking the joint so the onset was definitely very quick. During the come-up I quickly noticed this was gonna be a VERY visual trip as the visuals kept on getting more and more pronounced. I actually wondered if I had accidentally made a mistake when weighing; maybe it was 125mg instead of 25? But nah, the stuff is just very potent.
After I felt like I had come up, or was close to reaching the peak, I started snorting from the lines of 3-ho-pcp I had prepared. The visuals at this point were already really beautiful, reminding me of DMT trips. They were comparable in intensity and brightness to a high dose of 2c-b. (my highest dose of 2c-b is 60-66mg) I felt like it was a ++++ even before doing the lines of pcp. I was definitely not in my body anymore.
t+01:01 - snorted ~3mg of 3-ho-pcp.
t+01:16 - snorted another ~5mg of 3-ho-pcp
t+01:22 - snorted ~5mg of 3-ho-pcp
Unfortunately I don't remember all too much of the trip, just the personal things but as you all know they can be really hard to put into words. I was seeing/feeling entities and I was in places I can't describe. It felt like home. I felt like I lived other lives and learned some valuable lessons. At some point I was worried about my body and that I might die because of the amount of relatively unknown chemicals in my body. I could not accept this as I felt huge guilt of dying right there so I was telling myself that if I was gonna survive this, I was gonna turn my life around and quit using benzos and stims so often in order to not suppress my spiritual life. And smoke DMT more often. I reminded myself I wasn't on a dangerous combo per se, but that it sure as hell was and is a dangerous path I am going down with my drug use. Getting more and more reckless. Every time.
I don't know why I'm posting this, I guess it's mostly for myself because I need to write it down but I figured I might as well share it because of the combinations.