reposting here from /r/drugs
Oddly enough I’ve tried other dissociates before this.
My beloved pet died yesterday morning after a long struggle with an injury. I am one month from 21 and wanted to get fucked up somehow. Maybe a bad trip plan. I’m feeling good in the moment though, and it is hard for me to have a bad trip (outside of nausea).
I bought 60 gel caps. I’m taking 14 right now, which is 210mg at 15 mg a cap. I’m 5’8, and 145 lbs.
I punctured each with a thumbtack before swallowing. I puncture three at a time. I didn’t end up tasting anything (heard it’s really bad). Hope it hits me good!
I want to give updates every few minutes and follow any advice you’re willing to give.
15 minutes after I finished my last pill and I’m feeling normal.
45 minutes have passed. I feel pretty normal. Maybe slightly off. I think I can focus my eyes on things better, albeit slower. That probably just a placebo effect. I have no nausea whatsoever.
I’m going to listen to that new Kanye/Kid Cudi album. I am vaguely interested in it and probably wouldn’t get around to listening front to back otherwise. Kanye’s still a snake tho.
an hour and 15 minutes in. My stomach hurts a little, kinda like if you take aspirin on an empty stomachs. I don’t think I have any effects yet, besides the eye focusing.
I got distracted from the album after getting a call. I’m listening to it now.
an hour and a half later, I don’t really feel anything. I am having trouble communicating a little. No nausea. Should I finish the bottle? It’d be 90mg more, resulting in 300mg total.
I also really like the song 4th Dimension off the album.
two hours later I think I feel it. I stopped listening to music because it was too much noise. The color black looks too bright on my phone screen, too. I had to switch the reddit app off of dark mode. I’m laying on my bathroom floor because I like how the tile feels (cold). I don’t feel sick but I feel compelled to throw up.
two hours and 15 minutes later I really want to throw up. I feel him trying to come up my throat. Not gonna happen. My face is itchy.
two hours and 20 minutes later I finished the last of the bottle, I don’t want to feel sick for nothing. I punctured them again, much more hard to make the motor skills this time. I’m back in bed.
I don’t know what to do. Nothing on youtube looks appealing.
two hours and 35 minutes later I threw up. I feel so much better. The nausea was bad. I took 6 more pills to replace the ones I immediately threw up.
two hours and 50 minutes later I have a red splotchy rash on my throat/upper chest. I think it’s from scratching.
I don’t have euphoria or anything.
Music doesn’t sound better, because I can hear when people breathe when they sing, and that is unappealing.
I am forcing myself to cough because i think it’s ironically funny. I just want to stare at my posters and not think about anything.