I had been wanting to try dxm for a couple years now, but never got around to it. It was honestly scary good. It's the first dissociative I've done, and it makes me really want to do more. I decided to take it easy for my first time, and went with 354mg for my 94lb self. It went down a lot easier than I expected. I chugged the 12oz bottle in a couple seconds while plugging my nose, and had no problem. It took for fucking ever to kick in, like 10 hours, but luckily I didn't experience much nausea, probably thanks to a bowl when I took it, and one about half way through when I got really queasy. I spent the entire trip under my covers, in the dark, listening to music. Bishop Allen's The Broken String ended up being the soundtrack of the night though. Once I found it, I listened to it 5 or 6 times in a row I think.
It was mildly psychedelic, like a small dose of acid, even had some of the giddiness and energy I associate with acid, I distantly found myself dancing slightly while in bed during the come up. The entire trip was very much in waves. It started with increased euphoria, I iremember noting that I felt like I was laying naked in a tall grass field, with the sun shining on my body. Eventually, I began to feel like I was slowly falling downwards, but not in a bad way, just my body felt pull from that direction. I kept sinking further, and eventually my entire body was gone, and that's when the good stuff began. Due to the sensory deprivation, I felt like I was nothing but pure energy, a part of the music, and a part of the world. I felt completely isolated, but also strongly connected to everyone and everything. I was unable to move, or feel any parts of my body. I knew I was laying down, but couldn't figure out in what position, and even if I was still in my house. It was honestly one of the most amazing feelings ever. It felt like it lasted forever, but as soon as it was gone, I missed it so much.
I slowly began to come back to myself, and this was when the most intense visuals were. I didn't see anything that wasn't there, it was more the folds of the world moving and spinning like balls, and also feeling like I was traveling, like moving 60mph, but felt completely still. I remember having a moment where I was very aware of tripping, and used this knowledge to expand myself to fill my entire house, like a balloon. I tried to expand further, but my mind wasn't strong enough, and eventually it wandered to something else. These three phases alternated, but seemingly decreased in intensity after the initial one, until about 6am, so about 8 hours of actual tripping, with a couple hours on each side affected less intensly.
I must say, the "hole" or whatever it was I felt, was one of the greatest feelings I've ever had. I couldn't feel any part of my body, much less move, and it allowed my mind to be so much more free. I want to experience this more very much. Is what I reported at all similar to a k-hole (although obviously much milder). At higher doses, does that "hole" last longer?
I have become a big dissociatives fan now, and really appreciate this community and all their help. Any input, feedback, or recommendations would be greatly appreciated. I can't wait to try it again. Thanks guys!