I took two 165mg doses through my nose and smoked a hybrid oil pen last night. (One around 11:30PM, and another around 2:30AM.) Sorry if the writing is kinda sloppy, I'm a little out of it and ketamine experiences can be hard to describe.
I’m gonna give a summary of both trip reports because they’re walls of text that won’t really make sense to anyone else. There is no TL;DR available, so make sure you have a few minutes to properly read though this and attempt to understand it, here we go!
Physical:
Weightlessness, lose all feeling but retained motor functionality, walking felt robotic and manual, my skin felt different (I kept rubbing my fingertips along my face and arms), my whole body felt loose (my arms and fingers felt like they would flow like water). While typing on my phone, it felt slippery, heavy, and weightless (it felt different every time I picked it up). Gravity seemed to shift around to different points in my body, my most vivid memory of this was when my whole left side of my body felt heavier than the other half.
Visual:
Rearranging facial features, extra eyeballs on faces, objects and my fingers were stretching, I was shirtless in the mirror and my body looked a lot wider than it actually is (I’m tall and skinny but I looked tall and wide kinda like a rectangle). Warping, double vision, vision trails, depth perception felt weird (objects and other things I looked at felt like my eyes were zooming in and out like a camera), blurry vision, enhanced colors, my surroundings looked like I was seeing in 4K UHD (everything looked more detailed). My water bottle looked like it was full of smoke whenever I looked down into it. Darkness felt darker and lights felt brighter.
Audio:
I can hear a vibrating ring as I come up. My hearing was super strong, I could hear everything super clearly. My TV volume was set to 1 but I was able to hear it clearly. Music highly influences how your trip will feel (Synthwave “Cyberpunk” music made me feel like I was living in the future while LoFi made me feel super chilled out) Hearing voices on the tv while I was in the bathroom made me think I was listening to a podcast, it was just the news. Real life noises echoed and felt like they were a part of the song I was listening to.
I could hear my voice in my head super clearly, and I was talking without actually making any noise (I felt like I was speaking out loud, even yelling out loud, but I took a video of myself and there was no noise at all).
Mental:
My room is in a furnished basement, and the stairs leading up to the rest of my house looked like they led up to space or some other void.
I had a nice conversation with a character in the mirror that I voiced myself but while I talked to him, I had a fluent British accent (I’m from Ohio). The conversation was super therapeutic and I think it was melting my ego away a lil.
Time was in a constant loop of speeding up and slowing down.
Whenever I looked at my emoji keyboard, they seemed to be living things and I could hear some of them (The 😱 face sounded like someone saw something shocking and gasped “Oh my”).
Summary:
Ketamine seems like a different experience every time I take it. The factors that come into play with how I experienced the K are: setting, music, visuals, and being with people or being alone.
The feeling can be best described from all of my 100-175mg doses are: You feel like you’re a space jellyfish that is in a trance that is directly effected by the sensory stimulations around you.
The things I described (or tried to describe) above are the only things that I could even attempt to describe with words. While on a high dose of K, there are things that you can’t really explain through words and you just need to experience them for yourself.
If you take Ketamine while watching Cyberpunk/SciFi movies and listening to Synthwave/Vaporwave, you’ll feel immersed into a future that already exists.
If you take Ketamine while dancing at a music festival, you’ll go into a trance like state and you mind/body will become one with the music.
Ketamine trips will go in the general direction you push them towards, but they’ll take some detours along the way and you just have to enjoy the ride.
If you’re curious about reading the raw, unedited trip reports.. I can copy+paste them for anyone interested!