This Trip report is going to go through two trips in the span of two days, the first one being normal and the second one being....weird
Background: Just started experimenting recently and I must say I just had the weirdest experience yet. I was introduced by listening to Flying Lotus and figured this sounds like something I would be interested in. Never tried and LSD, Shrooms, or anything of the sort because I felt like those were "drugs" where dmt was more natural. So after looking more into it I decided to try extracting. After finally getting past bad smoking techniques and trying The Machine I was finally able to get to a point where I would see patterns and get into the waiting room. With a little more practice I was able to go deeper and hear "Beings" talk to me in a babbling language. I eventually broke through after about 3 failed attempts(with a pop bottle) and about 6 successful sessions (with the newfound Machine). My first break through was amazing. It started with seeing patterns then boom I felt as though I completely left my body and went into a different world. unfortunately that trip was very short and I felt more like it was a cool ride rather then a full blown meaningful breakthrough. With feeling like I wasn't getting the full experience inside sitting in the dark, it was finally warm enough for me to try outside and boy was I excited to try in a new setting.
First Outside Journey: My first time outside was yesterday and I immediately had better results. The patterns were more vivid and I felt more disconnected from reality. Next thing I now I was transported into what I can only explain as not a "place" but a "feeling". I started to feel love and purpose from all the nature that was around me. I felt like the trees around me were telling me that they were happy to be alive. Once I opened my eyes I immediately started to feel sad but optimistic. I felt as though we as humans were so destructive and neglectful to nature. I felt guilt because even though we're so destructive the trees still found a way to be happy. This made me feel optimistic about life. Lesson 1, I felt like it was my job to help our planet. lesson 2, I felt like the trees were trying to get me to understand that if things that are damaged can be happy then as humans we all can.
Second and weirdest outside journey: After having what I felt like to be a meaningful and successful trip I decided I needed to know more. The next day I went out to the same spot. I meditated and made sure I was calm since I was still excited from the previous days trip. I took 2 pulls and relaxed. I took another pull and as I was pulling my vision distorted. I felt like I was a native American or African from hundred of years in the past. I started to see my hand turn wrinkled as if I was 90 years old. (the hand things has happened before but never have I felt like I was someone else in a different time period even before the trip fully started). On the 4th pull I started to get the typically "fisheye lens" effect and my hand started to age even more. This time unlike my other trips where I see cool shifting patterns I stating hearing the "beings" babble and I started to feel, see and be reminded of events in my life. I have never had this happen so I started to get slightly uncomfortable and I tried to talk to my self in my head to make sense of it. Everytime I tried to talk to my self in my head I would get half an English word out then it would turn into babble. (Just to give you a better description on the babble listen to "Flying Lotus - Time Vampires", the babbles I hear sound extremely similar to that). I started to then see the more negative things that have happened to me recently. I was reminded of my ex cheating, I felt like I wasn't completing college quickly enough, I felt like the job I'm working was meaningless, I felt like I was getting old even though I'm only 23, I felt like I had 1000 insecurities that I've never thought of before. the trip was telling me how my life was small and letting me know I should be ashamed at everytime I've ever felt like "I'm better than them" or "what happened to that person can never happen to me". dmt literally smacked my life and my ego in the face. At this point I was confused because I heard that you shouldn't try exploring until you are in an okay place in your head and I felt fine. Some of the negative things that came up were things that I was depressed about at some point in my life but not currently. Its weird because I feel the best that I've felt in ages yet I felt like DMT was trying to break me down and destroy me. Before I could get sad at what was being shown to me the trip took a drastic turn and showed me that any negative things that happened in my life or any insecurities I could have were pointless. I felt like I was succeeding and on a path to greatness. The trip then shifted to showing me how as humans we are so unique but small on the grand scheme of things. I saw that there were other forms of life and consciousness outside of the world we know. I saw how completely different this other life was compared to us. Everything that we do as humans became so foreign and pointless. The way that we group, classify, and rate things became the most idiotic concept ever. I was shown a representation on how we classify race, education, other humans, animals, feeling, beliefs and it all just seemed so stupid. Even concepts like time, days, year, months became pointless. The trip briefly turned and showed me how those concepts influenced my life and again showed me how useless they were. My friends and family just became simply "people", My car became simply "metal", time became "life" not boxes on a calendar. My eyes started to peek open and at this point there were tears rolling down my face. I felt like they were tears of pure joy. As my eyes were peeking open I started smiling and laughing at how weird it was that we put things and categories and how we put so much importance on trivial things. when I fully opened my eyes started to feel my face and body. It all just felt as if I was a foreign being touching a human for the first time. This trip completely humbled me, knocked me on my ass but at the same time showed me that humans are important and unique but not by that standards that we choose to see. This was definitely the most powerful and meaningful trip I've experienced.
Has anyone had a trip experience like this? Was this a bad trip turned positive or was this just the normal ego destruction that everyone has to go through? Does anyone else get the reoccurring "old hands" when lighting? Please Share!