DOSE:
T+ 0:00
40 mg
oral
Amphetamines
T+ 29:15
oral
Amphetamines
BODY WEIGHT:
185 lb
I was diagnosed with ADD back in 1990 when I was 6 years old. I took various stimulant medication (Ritalin, Adderall) through out middle school and high school and discontinued at age 18 once I graduated. During High School, I was involved in a few car accidents where I crushed my arm which needed reconstructive surgery. I also had a collapsed lung, acute renal failure and strep pneumonia. Needless to say, I was put on various drugs in high school such as OxyContin, Percocet, Hydrocodone, Tramadol, Morphine, Dilaudid, Xanax, Clonazepam, Seroquel, Ambien, Tizanidine, Skelaxin among others. While in High School I never abused these drugs and took them as needed, though I recognized that these drugs provided a very nice comfortable escape from the pain and worry of life (physical and emotional).
Now fast forward 8 years. This is my experience in taking 40mg of Adderall, I usually take 20mg, but I decided I needed the boost today.
6:45a START
T-0:15 - Ate a biscuit, an energy gel (GU) and gulped a bottle of water
T-0:05 - Pulse rate at 59 BPM
T+0:00 - Chewed 40mg Dextro-Amphetamine (Adderall) IR. Ate a piece of beef jerky.
T+0:05 - Feel very depressed, unmotivated, hopeless. Have final exams next week and feel very behind. I feel overweight, unattractive, pessimistic. Slight pain in my lower spine from car accident in 2001 also in my left arm, comes on from time to time ironically during times of stress. Supposed to graduate with my BS in August, but still have to take Stats, Physics and complete my undergraduate mentored research practicum (thesis). Sigh.
T+0:15 - Starting to feel a slight rush of energy melting over my head. It feels like there is like a magnetic pull of energy running through my face. Not like a hydrocodone/opioid rush, it's different - much different. I feel actually the opposite of that. With the onset of an opioid high, it feels very mellow, peaceful, pleasurable. This is more of a gratifying feeling - like I just scored the winning touchdown, or kissed the girl of my dreams for the first time. It's a very rewarding, confident feeling. To be clear though I'm only feeling a glimpse of that, nowhere near euphoric yet.
T+0:20 - Pulse rate at 69 BPM
T+0:30 - Music sounds good, listening to Green Day - Geek Stink Breath :P 'I'm on a roll, no self control, blowing off steam with methamphetamine�.My pulse is beating out of time, I found a treasure filled with sick pleasure�' Feeling pretty good now, but not necessarily great.
T+0:45 - Pulse rate at 109 BPM
T+0:50 - Feel good. Motivated, confident, focused. I WANT to start working on my paper/to do list. No desire for food. Don't feel any jitters. I WANT to start working on my paper/to do list. No desire for food. Don't feel any jitters.