DOSE: T+ 0:00 120 mg oral Amphetamines T+ 9:00 120 mg oral Amphetamines
BODY WEIGHT:
177 lb
[Erowid Note: The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]
Two Decades of Adderall : An Amphetamine Autobiography
Thirty-five minutes ago I took a second 120 mg. dose of Adderall, the first was at noon -nine hours ago. 240 mg in total so far, -an enormous amount, but not to me.
My mindset is contemplative. I want to create a treatise on the subject. Be author of a seminal work. Somehow from my mind engineer an article on Adderall so profound it stands alone like a speed Mona Lisa. This may be the Adderall talking. Yes Adderall can make me unrealistic about my abilities. I notice a change in how I use language. With practice I no longer act on such absurd delusions of grandeur.
I am not manic. Mania from Adderall has a distinct quality, as voluminous as it is incoherent. Anything I remember doing while in that state is not nearly so compellingly interesting to marvel over after the drug wears off. I recall a fascination with math which was particularly hilarious and over-the-top. Yet the typography I drafted remains pure art.
Emotionally I am on the whole stable. Mild/severe transient bouts of depression this afternoon I can�t attribute to any one particular cause. I suppose it could be the emotion lability amphetamines have purportedly been known to cause.
Amphetamine use/abuse over many years imparts a distinct perspective on the way things seem: One moment all is right with the world, the next instance all wrong. Small change like the thought, �what a beautiful waterfall� can morph suddenly to �God what a failure I am, life�s for nothing.� Small change like the thought, �what a beautiful waterfall� can morph suddenly to �God what a failure I am, life�s for nothing.�