DOSE:
oral
Methamphetamine
insufflated
Methamphetamine
BODY WEIGHT:
180 lb
Less than a week ago I tried methamphetamine for the first time, and it went much better than I had expected. I had planned this for a month or so, put restrictions and harm reduction methods in place, and did as much online research as I could.
The restrictions included the following: I can't redose after a few hours since the first dose and will have to wait at least one week before getting high again. Swallowing and snorting are the only methods I allow for myself, due to the added addictive potential of smoking/shooting. I won't do meth while alone, because I'm still working on my willpower and maturity. Finally, I must sleep within 48 hours of being awake.
So I've had this wonderful boyfriend for a few months now, and our relationship is very strong. We're both serious about avoiding drug problems and have a hobby of exploring substances together, so we considered ourselves mature enough to handle meth. Of course, we're also quite young, so maybe we're just overly confident. He's done things like coke and MDMA before, and we've both done ketamine, shrooms, acid, weed, and more together. I believe I'm simply in an experimental and thrill-seeking phase of my life, having come out of a long depression, and my early 20s are the perfect time to go a little wild before I settle down.
My background with mental illness is a little concerning, and many of my friends scold me for messing with drugs because of it. I've had off-and-on psychosis for almost my entire life, including religious and persecutory delusions, voices and visuals, and manic/depressive moods. It's all been manageable however, and the only drug so far to have made it worse was LSD. I was worried that my fascination with meth and its culture would lead me to a terrible place mentally, but it seems I'm okay to experiment as long as it's not too big of a habit.
My boyfriend bought the meth, 1.3 grams of very beautiful shards from a dark web vendor. I convinced him to let me try it on a day when I got to come over to his house instead of our usual hotel shenanigans. His dad was gone for a couple of days. I had been awake for 22 hours before we started using. I had been awake for 22 hours before we started using.