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Ayahuasca
�Allow yourself to be devoured by the Alligator�
On the 21-09-19 I attended an ayahuasca ceremony in Denmark. Here is a transcript of my diary covering the events. (Drafted on word starting on the 28-12-19. Originally written down in my diary 22-09-19).
25.05.20 Note: Reading this back today, I notice that the writing style is that of a man who has been possessed by the spirit of a Victorian explorer in some dark mythic continent. Like a latter-day, pound shop Joseph Conrad. Very pretentious indeed, so bear with me from here on in!
The first thing I can say with any certainty is, that any form of language, expression, imagery or communication technique I will use herein to explain or describe the event will fall painfully short of what �really� happened that evening, but I will try and give you the reader loosely some idea of what the experience of taking ayahuasca felt like for me.
A very important point here, although through research and hindsight, I believe there are common themes and experiences witnessed through the medicine by people who have undergone the experience. I would like to make clear that this is very much my personal experience. And to add a caveat, I don�t intend to share this journal with anyone who might want to experience ayahuasca in the future, in a hope that I do not taint or add bias to the possible future experience for others.
As I have already mentioned, the visions that I experienced are almost impossible to recreate in words and language alone. The actual visual experience is beyond my poor communication skills. And even the visual representations one can find in videos showing the content of the ayahuasca experiences I have watched since the event, don�t fully capture the vibrance, vivacity, and ultra-reality of the visions that I experienced.
The strangeness of the content of the imagery of the experience bear little to no resemblance to our everyday waking experience of reality. Nothing on the trip was easily recognized, and therefore open to description. Other than by the vaguest of descriptions that I here now write down. Nothing on the trip was easily recognized, and therefore open to description. Other than by the vaguest of descriptions that I here now write down.