DOSE:
T+ 0:00
100 mg
oral
MDMA
(capsule)
T+ 0:00
repeated
smoked
Tobacco - Cigarettes
T+ 1:30
bumps
oral
MDMA
T+ 2:00
bumps
oral
MDMA
T+ 3:30
1 line
insufflated
Cocaine
T+ 4:30
1 line
insufflated
Cocaine
BODY WEIGHT:
60 kg
Seeing a substance in a new light
I am a 25 year old female - let's call me L.
At time of experience, weight was about 60kg. I have been using drugs since I was 15 or 16, started with cannabis. I'm a very experienced user of MDMA, and past drug experience includes, apart from those two, LSD, cocaine, mephedrone, ephedrine, MDPV, salvia, amphetamine and methylphenidate.
The MDMA used in this experience was pure and tested. Cocaine was of unknown quality or purity.
A little background: my favourite drug is, indeed, MDMA. I have abused it before but learned to respect it and respect myself. I've used it for 4 years, sometimes with pauses of months in-between, sometimes every weekend. I love to go out dancing and therefore I find MDMA to be the best drug for this. Apart from beautiful states of trance while dancing, it allows me to connect with friends on a deeper level and I have strengthened many friendships this way.
For cocaine, however, I have a dislike. I had used it maybe only a handful of times before, and never found it to be a drug that I could learn from. One time I had an anxiety attack from it, but all other times it would mostly turn me into a 'bad version' of myself: more hostile, more grumpy, fun at points but never really something I felt I 'understood'. Having a couple friends struggling with their very regular use was also always a put-off. So usually when offered a line, I simply have no desire to do it, and turn it down.
The experience itself:
I got ready to go out clubbing. Weighed myself a dose of 100mg MDMA on a digital scale, put it in a capsule, and stored it. Was feeling fine, looking forward to dance all night listening to my favourite DJ. Chatted a bit with the cab driver on my way there, arrived safely and in a good mood. Got in, went backstage, chatted a bit more. At 3AM (T: +0) decided to drop my MDMA capsule and descend to the dance floor. At this point I met a friend, let's call him N. Usually I do not check the time on my phone but decided to do it.
At around T +45m, I am feeling the drug. The first sign is always a sudden change in the music. Suddenly it sounds deeper, brighter, more detailed. The first sign is always a sudden change in the music. Suddenly it sounds deeper, brighter, more detailed.