DOSE:
30 mg
oral
Amphetamines
10 mg
oral
Amphetamines
BODY WEIGHT:
125 lb
I started seeing a psychiatrist because of depression in the fall of 2009. I had been depressed most of my life and decided to go to a doctor hoping maybe life could be less painful. I had been doing illegal substances (weed, vicodin, alcohol) to try and just feel okay for a while and when those ran out, I needed a new plan of action.
They put me on anti-depressants first, then tried mood stabilizers, and I was very sensitive to both and had a lot of side effects. Then they decided I had ADD after giving me the long diagnostic test and everything and I was prescribed Concerta first, which didn't do much, and so then was prescribed Adderall, which is where this awful story begins.
They put me on 30 mg Adderall XR a day and pretty immediately I noticed it working. I really can't tell if I had ADD and this is how it was supposed to work, or if it was the general stimulant buzz that gave me my experience, but it started out positive. I was able to concentrate better than before - I always used to feel like I was walking around in a fog - and I felt more aware and alert. I could think quicker and wasn't absent-minded like usual. I regularly folded clothes, vacuumed - crap I hardly ever did at my house. I felt productive and it felt good. Also, I felt calmer than usual when taking Adderall. I stopped worrying about little things like I used to.
However, I tended to have a hard time sleeping already and this only made it worse. There were days when I just didn't sleep and would crash at 9pm the next day. With the adderall, it was like I didn't even need to sleep really. Also, I wasn't hungry ever, and was losing weight, which I was happy about, but probably wasn't very healthy.
After a while, the dose seemed like it started wearing off faster. After a while, the dose seemed like it started wearing off faster.