DOSE:
4 - 10 mg
oral
Methamphetamine
(liquid)
Vitamin C
Magnesium
Melatonin
Pharms - Alprazolam
Meth as ADHD Medication
⚠️ I am not a doctor. Do not assume that I know what I'm talking about without at least fact-checking first
I have ADHD and severe executive dysfunction that renders me nearly entire unable to focus on things or do things, even when it's things that I like doing. I haven't had a chance to get ADHD medication from a doctor, but I decided that it would be easier, cheaper, and faster to get it myself.
The most commonly used ADHD meds are various stimulants:
-Adderall, which is a mix of 75% Dextroamphetamine and 25% Levoamphetamine
-Lisdexamphetamine, also known as Vyvanse
-Racemethylphenidate, also known as Ritalin or Concerta. There are a few other ones that are used less commonly, such as the isolated Dextro isomer of Methylphenidate, brand name Focalin.
However, I settled on a less commonly used one: Desoxyn, also known as Dextromethamphetamine. It's typically only used when a patient has already tried one of the above drugs and found it ineffective. I chose it almost entirely because it was much cheaper than any other option, and I have very little money.
When taking stimulants for any reason, keep in mind that they deplete various resources from your body, so you need to keep an eye on your diet and ideally take some supplements to manage problems. I've done a fair bit of research on this, but it's all very complicated, and everyone you ask will tell you something different, so I'm not entirely sure about all this myself. I settled for just taking Magnesium supplements, Melatonin (which I was already taking to help me sleep), and Vitamin C when I need to eliminate the drug faster. There are a lot of other things I could and potentially should be taking, but it's all either too hard to find or too hard to tell if it's actually important.
A prescription of d-Meth for ADHD is 5-25mg orally (rarely, more if needed). I decided to start a little over the lowest end of that, at 7mg.
Typical milligram scales are somewhat inaccurate, especially at low measurements, so I decide to mix it into water so I can dose volumetrically. A quick search seemed to say that Meth dissolves in water up to a maximum of 500mg/mL, but I decided to only do 7mg/mL, as it's much easier to dose a weaker solution, and it won't taste as bad. I mix 70mg of Meth into 10mL of water and stir it until it all dissolves, which was significantly faster than I expected. I'm used to mixing solutions of Ketamine for injection, and Ketamine is much more reluctant to dissolve in water. This solution is also a lot easier to prepare, since I'm only taking it orally and therefore don't have to be anywhere near as careful about avoiding contamination (though I do still keep everything clean).
Meth is very acidic, and you really don't want the crystals touching your teeth or throat, but a small amount of a solution this dilute should probably be fine, in my very much not professional opinion. I'd say it tastes less acidic than a soda, at least.
I was tracking everything I eat just in case it's relevant, but I cut those bits out in the final draft because it didn't seem to be relevant in the end.
DAY 1
0:00 I woke up a few hours ago and have not eaten. I squirt 1mL of 7mg/mL Methamphetamine water into my mouth. Despite the low concentration, it tastes horrible.
0:40 I'm starting to experience the desire to do something. Normally I'm content to just lay down and do nothing, and while I still could, I actually want to do something. I may be experiencing mild euphoria, though I might also just be feeling happy due to the desire to do something. My movements are somewhat faster and more eager than usual (I'm usually akin to a sloth or slug in terms of movement). I do feel somewhat as though I am on drugs, but it's mild; I can still act normal.
0:45 I feel like I can listen and pay attention to others when they talk. Someone is talking to me and I'm picking up every word instead of being too distracted to listen. Maybe I've actually been taking Estrocillian (joke).
0:57 I'm typing faster, especially on my phone. Though my accuracy might be worse I feel increased focus on the game I'm playing and increased willingness to move. When I do move, it is faster. I'm more willing and able to talk about things, and my speech comes out faster. It's not to a huge degree; it's all pretty subtle.
1:28 I just cleaned the house. I can't believe there has been so much shit just laying on the ground for weeks and no one picked it up. I notice that I'm talking faster than normal, and am overall more eager to talk about things.
2:38 I start drawing, and focus on it for a while with very few distractions or breaks.
3:00 I don't really feel like I'm "on drugs" anymore; more so I just feel normal and able to function. I take a momentary break to walk to the store. While there, I feel very...healthy? It's like I belong in the world, like I'm a living creature just like everyone else there, instead of feeling like I stand out by being a lifeless husk. I feel very...healthy? It's like I belong in the world, like I'm a living creature just like everyone else there, instead of feeling like I stand out by being a lifeless husk.