Background: I'm a mentally stable and happy 21-year-old college student. I trip relatively frequently, typically on heroic doses (5-10 tabs) and can usually handle myself. Tonight, I couldn't.
It started with me watching a documentary called 'Inner Worlds, Outer Worlds' by Daniel Schmidt — tripped me out because that's my name. I enjoyed a lot of what he said, but toward the end his viewpoints had an aggressive judgmental vibe I wasn't about.
The trip progressed and I naturally fell into a state where my internal and external worlds no longer held a barrier. I was experiencing my internal growth externally. This started as me hearing my mom cry about me not calling her in the background of the next film.
I needed a breather so I turned on some music... only to have the exact same sounds and feelings continue. It confronted me further and further. I built internal structures of reality based on what I knew and what I was experiencing. They were wrong.
The energies, feelings, and visual/audio hallucinations were eventually 'taken over' by a force that felt outside me, outside my control. And it was seeking energetic vengeance.
I basically had it in my head that we are of a continuous shared energetic field experiencing itself in many ways. I thought something happened to my 'soul family.' Reality became completely untethered.
I ended up calling friends at 5 AM, barely coherent, trying to explain what was happening. The call to my dad was the hardest — I could barely form words.
This is my plea of caution: even experienced psychonauts can be overwhelmed. Respect the substance. Have a sitter for high doses. Set and setting matter even more than you think they do.