A large nitrous binge last night gave me my first encounter with what I can only describe as aliens. I have taken salvia, LSD, mushrooms, MDMA, and none of them have ever made me feel like I was connecting with something on the other side of the universe.
This time with nitrous, I received messages from what felt like the other end of the universe. The message was simple but profound: love without greed, relax in the face of eternity, trust in randomness.
I do not know how to explain the mechanism by which a simple gas can produce such a specific and coherent experience. It was not like the random chaos of a salvia trip or the emotional waves of MDMA. It felt directed, intentional, like something was specifically communicating with me.
The experience has left me genuinely shaken in the best possible way. I feel a sense of peace and perspective that I have not gotten from any other substance. The messages, if that is what they were, feel true in a way that is hard to articulate.
No more nitrous for me for a while. Not because it was negative, but because the experience feels complete. Like I received what I was meant to receive.