I decided to bring in the new year with a significant dose of 4-AcO-DMT. I prepared 50mg dissolved in a small amount of warm water and administered it rectally for faster onset and stronger effects.
Within 10 minutes the first alerts appeared — a tingling warmth spreading through my body and the first hints of visual distortion. By 20 minutes I was fully immersed. The walls of my room were breathing and covered in intricate geometric patterns that seemed to contain infinite detail the closer I looked.
At 30 minutes I experienced complete ego dissolution. The concept of being a person sitting in a room ceased to exist. I became a point of awareness suspended in an infinite space of fractal geometry and pulsating colors. Time lost all meaning — moments felt like eternities and eternities like moments.
The peak lasted what felt like several lifetimes but was probably about 2 hours. During this time I experienced profound insights about the nature of consciousness, interconnectedness, and the arbitrary nature of the self. There were moments of terror when I forgot I had taken a substance, but these passed as I surrendered to the experience.
Coming down was gentle. By hour 4 I was coherent enough to write notes. By hour 6 I felt nearly baseline with a warm afterglow. The next few days I felt a significant improvement in my mood and a renewed appreciation for everyday experiences. This substance deserves the reverence the community gives it.