Let me set the scene....
Me and my girlfriend had tried MDMA for the first time about 6 months ago and had since done it a handful of times. We realized that we probably had to slow it down and play it safe, having read a lot of horror stories about people doing it too much.
After much research and talk, we decided on trying 2CB. Everything I’d read about it seemed to be suitable for our next drug to try. We are keen to try psychedelics like LSD and shrooms but aren’t quite yet ready mentally so wanted to try something a little softer - hence the 2CB.
Long story short, a handful of unsuccessful vendors, no stock, and a bunch of refunds later, we managed to get hold of some through a trusted vendor we have used before.
Yesterday, a beautiful package came in the post, containing little, round, blue Mickey Mouse pills - and I mean REALLY little. The pills were tested as positive for 2cb and the stated dose for each pill was listed as 20mg. However, I’ve read just about everywhere that the pills are usually heavily under-dosed.
We decided to drop at 9:00pm. We felt good and calm, rather excited on what to expect. My girlfriend (5 7’’ and weighing 53kg) dropped one of the pills and I (6 foot and weight 83kg) dropped one and a half. You can call me stupid but I guess I didn’t want to be disappointed for my first time. Anyways, here’s what happened.
T+30 minutes - My girlfriend started throwing up, this continued for the next half an hour or so. I’m not sure what it is, but the last couple of times she’s done MD, she’s thrown up as well. Should we leave a certain amount of time after eating (usually leave 3 hours)? Or is there something more sinister?
T+50 minutes - Both starting to feel really fuzzy in the head and things are starting to breathe. Both excited but it’s staring to get a bit intense.
T+1.5 hours - Things are getting VERY intense, girlfriend doesn’t want to stand up as it’s all too intense. I can stand up but it’s pretty damn intense now.
T+2 hours - This is the height of it. I can’t remember an awful lot but here’s what I do remember... Things were breathing a lot, when we would turn the lights off, geometric patterns would slowly appear and come more into perspective the longer I stared into space. I had an urge to just lie down as it was so intense in my head. The patterns with my eyes open weren’t ever that intense and definitely not what I expected. Apart from lots of things breaking and some geometric shapes if I really tried, that was mostly it. My head was so fuzzy though and when I closed my eyes; it opened another world. Patterns after patterns, seeing faces everywhere, all sorts of madness. Time felt like it was going so fucking slow. Girlfriend felt exactly the same.
T+3 hours - Definitely still massively high but over the peak for certain. It keeps coming in waves and it’s really odd.
T+4 hours - Sat on the loo and staring at my girlfriends carpet, when I let my mind take over - I start seeing the little strand turn into hands/arms and they’re reaching out at me.
T+5 hours - Pretty calm now but still getting breathing effects and got a fuzzy head.
Conclusion: Overall, it was nothing like either of us expected. I understand that a slight change in mg can completely change the trip experience but out of everything I’ve read, nothing compares.
I guess I have a couple of questions for those who are experienced.
Is the first time always odd?
I honestly can’t say that I fully enjoyed it. Things were really funny at times but also very intense in my head at times. For the most part, I felt like I wanted to sleep and it was annoying me. Should I take it earlier next time?
One of the biggest things bugging me is that everyone says it has a really clear head space; what does this mean? I expected it to mean that I feel completely fine in my head but that I’m seeing cool colors and patterns, music is better etc. At times I felt I could think very clearly and I was almost talking to myself in my head about how strange the experience was but as soon as I tried to talk, my words just fumbled out of my mouth. Is this how it should feel?
Lastly, I didn’t feel much euphoric feeling at all. I felt the fuzziness of MDMA and definitely the unclear head at peak but I certainly didn’t feel happy a lot of the time. It was quite overwhelming. Once again, is this usual?
Overall, myself and my girlfriend both feel exactly the same about it. Definitely not what we expected. I’d love some sort of advice or insight because I love how many people say this drug is amazing but I’ve honestly been put off doing it. It wasn’t a bad trip, it was quite interesting. It just fucked with our heads so much and was so intense.
Thanks in advance!