This happened in May and was my first time with psychedelics. I only started doing anything in March. So I've rolled a couple times and done a bit of weed and hash since.
I took one pill which was about 25mg. I took half first and then the second half about an hour and a half later. The initial effects were that lights seemed sharper. I don't know if I felt much of the euphoric effects that MDMA is meant to have. Maybe I was too focused or worried about what other possible effects the 2cb was going to have? I felt like I was looking out for the visuals or the hallucinations...
Music sounded weird as well or a bit unclear. Maybe because I had earplugs in and it kind of distorted the sound but maybe because the music was just weird? I did record some videos at the time and I have since looked back on them and concluded that the music was just really weird. (Alan Fitzpatrick, this at Prydz for Steel Yard).
The moment that hit me was when I was going to get more water with my friends and then I lost them or they were well ahead of me. I was following them but for some reason it felt like I was walking and walking and not reaching my destination. I got a bit worried and I decided to turn back to sit with some friends and I explained to them what happened. They told me that my sense of depth perception will be distorted.
I'm not sure why but in that moment where I was alone trying to follow my friends and walking and like I was moving nowhere was quite overwhelming and worrying. At that point it felt like I was in a dream. As I sat with my friends I ended up lying down and just drifted... and then my friends who got water came back. Then some more friends join afterwards and we were all just chilling.
I didn't feel like any of them were real for some reason. Again feeling like I was in a dream and that nothing that I said would matter because I was in a dream. I remember clinging onto my phone most importantly. I was asking my friend "Am I here? Am I really here?" Something along those lines. Which in hindsight is pretty funny. I don't know why but I felt like reality wasn't real. I felt like I was dreaming. Questioning if what was happening was actually happening.
People were talking. But I didn't care what they were saying because I was thinking this wasn't real so nothing mattered. I couldn't focus on what people were saying. I remember seeing the tent and seeing small waves and colours. I waved my hand a bit and it looked like there was an effect following it. (Tracers?) After that, people were deciding to start going back in. I didn't know if it was a good idea. Part of me just wanted to stay in the same spot and just wait it out until the comedown or till I snapped out. But we went in. I was with two friends and I grabbed onto them a little bit. We couldn't find the rest but I just couldn't be bothered to move and find them or I just felt it was best to stay in the same spot. They wanted to go and find them but I was telling them something along the lines of "I think we should just stay here and enjoy the trip" lmfao.
Deep down I felt like I could have been dying and I wouldn't have known. Like possibly I was actually getting wheeled away in a hospital bed for the ambulance or I was in a coma or deep dream, and I wouldn't have truly known because I was "hallucinating" or I was on drugs.
I couldn't wait for the trip to end. Just couldn't wait for the comedown. I remember thinking to myself that I never want to do this again. And I dread to think what actual acid is like. I remember when Prydz was starting and I was very conscious of time. Was time moving? I looked at my phone. 20:30pm. Ok it is time for Prydz. A while later looked at my phone again it was 20:32pm. So time was definitely getting on but how would I know? I could be dreaming.
I just tried to enjoy myself as much I could but I kept having negative thoughts. My preconceptions of people's experiences on 2cb or acid I definitely feel had an effect on my experience.
I'm thinking of trying acid some time now though... do you think it would be a good idea lol. Maybe just need to keep positively thinking.