*Posted in r/Drugs also but felt it more appropriate to post here also
Made a throwaway to share my experience with you guys, let me know what you think about it and if you've had any similar experiences with psychedelics or 2cb, I'm hoping someone can relate!
TL:DR: Tried 2cb at house party properly first time, was constantly paranoid I'd pissed myself, had the most nightmarish scary experience I've ever had in my life, never wanted to be sober more.
I'm an 18M and last night I went to a small house party, there were quite a few "anti-drug" people there so had to keep my drug use on the down low. I've had experiences with ket, MDMA, weed and 2cb 1 time before taken at the peak of a roll. I arrive at around 9 have a couple beers, a key of ket and drop a green twitter pill tested and was advertised as 18mg.
I hadn't eaten for a few hours before so after about an hour I felt a come up not too dissimilar to MDMA, but this is were things started becoming really unpleasant, I had only told a mate that was on 2cb so made sure to tell him to keep an eye on me. I come up and the intense visuals start, in the garden flowers start spinning and the ground is slowly deforming, my vision starts spiraling feeling like I'm constantly spinning on the spot but I was enjoying the visuals as it was one of my first proper experiences with psychedelics.
I'm usually a very social guy at parties but I physically couldn't think straight to be able to talk, I would catch onto a conversation going on around me think of reply but it seemed every time I was just about to talk my body wouldn't let me and I'd start thinking about something completely different. It was about 10:30 by now and all I wanted was space away from people, I started feeling really stressed around people, but needed my mate who knew I was high. He left a couple times for a few minutes and every time he did I would start to panic and continue to do so until he came back.
I was stood outside the front of the house now with my mate just trying to comprehend what was going on in my head, serious visuals and really contorted thoughts. This is where I'd say the nightmare started, for some reason I got it in my head everything wet, the ground, my t-shirt my trousers etc. this caused me to think I had fully pissed myself making myself intensely paranoid. Everything I was thinking about was about whether I needed a piss or had I pissed myself or were my trousers and shoes soaking wet. I was still outside and another mate came over who was sober, then my other mate went inside for something. By this point I was incredibly paranoid, I was worried about every little thing, those guys laughing over there.. were they laughing at me? A light went on... does everyone know and they're trying to get me inside? music stopped.. had the party ended because everyone was worried and looking at me? whys it wet..I've pissed myself.. I've definitely pissed myself... everyone is laughing and taking videos of me pissing myself.
I turned and sprinted off into a field opposite the house, running about a playing field panicking and worrying, the sober mate ran after me and starts talking to me, all i think he's doing is taking the piss, everything he says he's lying about to try and work me up and get a laugh out of it, I'm asking if he's sober, he says yes but I don't believe him I don't believe anything. I want to be at home, I want to be on my own, but I don't, I want someone to talk to, I need someone at a baseline to know what sobriety and reality is, what even is reality anymore, nothing I'm seeing or hearing is real.
It's 11:00 and I want nothing more than to be sober, I'm now walking around an estate with my sober mate, time after time asking if he's sober, asking if I'd pissed myself, asking if people are laughing, asking who knew about me, I'd get to a moment where I'm completely content and feel like I've caught back up with reality and it was wearing off, thank god! But wait... my leg feels warm my shoe feels wet, I've just pissed myself, no no no everyone is laughing I can hear them, I'm soaking, my mate is still taking this piss.. and the intense paranoia starts all over again, the same thoughts and feelings as every other cycle of this awful trip.
Time means nothing to me but I'd been walking with my mate for over an hour now, constantly asking him the same things over and over, with each cycle somehow becoming more nightmarish than the one before, even though I knew the answer I just wouldn't let myself believe or trust anything. A couple of times I really start to panic, verging very close to full on panic attack, nearly breaking down in tears, wanting this to end, wanting tonight to be over...
it's now 12:00 the paranoia is slowly fading, I'd get moments it would intensely flair up again.. do I need to pee, is that piss down my leg? but i was back inside, chilling with some mates in a bathroom doing balloons and the odd key of ket... 12:30 the nightmarish paranoia is virtually all gone, I'm overcome with relief and want to enjoy the rest of the night, I hope half a pill of MDMA, couple lines of ket and we're off... But now the ket was scaring me the same reason the 2cb was, not as intensely but I couldn't stop worrying about needing a piss/pissing myself in the house with everyone around me. Had the experiences on 2cb ingrained itself into every other drugs effect!? Eventually the night finished, heading to a mates house and slept the rest of the night. I had never been so grateful for a sober mate who genuinely wanted to stay with me and make sure I was okay, I can't imagine how much worse it would have been without him.
I understand this is long but I've never been so scared and paranoid in my life, I had read up about 2cb and was expecting a trip like experience but nothing close to how intense it really was. I had to share this experience somewhere and here seemed like the perfect place, if you've read all this then well done and thank you, if you have any similar experiences please share them, and any advice would be welcome to!