Last week I had made a solution of 1 tab in 10 ML vodka with plans to take .5 to 1 ml at a time. I waited til today to start since its my most mellow day without too much to do.
This morning after breakfast I took .5ml and did not really expect much to happen. I started some laundry and did my usual morning routine.
About 40 minutes later i was on the couch and suddenly had a cold rush go through my body. Its 90 degrees so it was internal. I then became very aware of my jaw and eyes(lol) and got paranoid thinking maybe I took too much and then telling myself I couldnt have since I shook the bottle and measured with a seperate measurement tool.
I also had to MOVE. I jumped up and started trying to find things to clean and more laundry. This paranoia only lasted about 4 minutes or so then I felt more or less fine. I summed it up to my body realizing i took something,which I havent in quite a while. Last time I dosed was 2010.
I then had a hightened sense of self and things around me. I very much enjoyed how the sun was shining across my yard haha. I went to have a smoke and did not want it at all once I took a puff,which was nice because Ive been trying to quit. This all faded within about 3 hours and now I feel so very tired. I just made a giant cup of coffee since its only 2:22pm and I have so much more to do today lol.
What can i do to make the affects last longer but without such a strong onset? I'm not alone during the day and have a lot of housework and what not to do and I'm trying to MD to be more productive while weaning off meds, so longer effects with more subtle onset would be ideal. It made me nervous that someone would notice something was up if they saw me when I felt that rush and I dont want that.