DOSE:
300 mg
oral
DXM
15 mg
5-MeO-DiPT
smoked
5-MeO-DMT
smoked
DMT
BODY WEIGHT:
52 kg
This is a retrospective of NN-DMT and 5-MEO-DMT.
The 1st time I ever smoked 5-meo-dmt it scared the shit out of me. It was way over intense, and really put me in my place. Subsequently, I trod carefully and actually had a generally good time with it at low doses.
Then some years ago I had occasion to combine DXM (about 300mg) 5-meo-dipt (about 15mg) and 5-meo-dmt (about 5-10mg). At the time that I hit the 5-meo-dmt I was already in a substantially altered state.
When the 5-meo-dmt hit I felt a plug hole open up beneath me, and as my life force was sucked away I said 'sorry' to my friend who was there with me.
After I had collapsed into a puddle he asked me 'why are you sorry' and I replied 'because I just died on your floor and you will have to get my body removed' to which he responded 'if you are dead how are you talking to me' and I replied in all sincerity 'from beyond the grave'...
Then I broke through and found myself laid out on a table with 2 beings who would be best described as 'Greys' standing over me debating what to make of me. They were talking about the fact that I was not supposed to be there and that they didn't know what to do with me because it wasn't my time to move on but I had forced myself to the threshold. They were quite relieved when I came off the boil and returned to reality - more so even than I was.
In the wake of this I was euphoric. Presumably because I had narrowly avoided death (in my mind).
Years passed before I touched either again, this time NN-DMT.
Over the last few months I have attended to NN-DMT on a few occasions.
Of the 7 attempts I have made in this period I could say that 2 were good. The other 5 were variously odd, uncomfortable, disturbing or scary.
I haven't had a major freak out or soul destroying episode, nor for that matter have I had any substantial break-through experiences. Yet at the same time I would say that my DMT experiences have been largely bad.
I'm left questioning whether I should stop banging this particular drum I'm left questioning whether I should stop banging this particular drum