DOSE:
7+ shots
oral
Alcohol - Hard
2- 5 tablets
oral
MDMA
BODY WEIGHT:
130 lb
I tried molly for the first time this year. I grew up rather closed minded to the idea of drugs and although saying I had no desire to try drugs would be a lie, I was definitely too scared of what they would do to me to be open enough to trying. My biggest fear was that I would lose control of myself. As part of that fear, I was largely afraid of the fact that I really did not know myself, and drugs might open up a part of me I did not like, although a part of me that is real.
After amazing experiences abroad this past summer, I felt more in touch with myself than over. I felt totally open to anything. Although I was open to taking in, I was still not entirely open to letting myself out, and the problem with missing this as well never occurred to me. But feeling I was ready, and intrigued by everyone's stories about using various drugs, I decided to give molly a go around.
The situation was set exactly to my liking. I met the person whom I truly believe to be my soulmate abroad (this part later becomes important), and he had planned everything out so that I would have the best experience possible. We had a place to stay in San Francisco and picked out a rave scene where I would be surrounded by other people experiencing the sensation I had yet to discover. We began the night with some very intimate activities, and feeling more open than ever and incredibly connected to my boyfriend, we finally dropped and headed to the nightclub.
When we first arrived, I wasn't feeling much and was starting to feel almost anxious that I wasn't going to get anything out of it. I took more molly and we relaxed. Sitting down I slowly started to feel everything around me differently. I looked down and my fingers were gripping into my seat. My body felt filled with an incredible energy. As I looked around, everything and everybody had a beauty I hadn't noticed before. My breath was different, my movements were smoother As I looked around, everything and everybody had a beauty I hadn't noticed before. My breath was different, my movements were smoother