DOSE:
repeated
oral
Alcohol
repeated
vaporized
Cannabis
oral
Mushrooms
(dried)
BODY WEIGHT:
110 lb
I�d been on the fence all day: to eat the mushrooms or not to eat the mushrooms? That was the question. It was my first day entirely away from work in a long (I�m talking six months) time, and I�d already had a gram of weed and a few ciders during the day. I�d been hoping to have a psychedelic experience for the past week or so. I�d been stuck in a negative thought pattern and hoped that getting into an atypical frame of mind might help me to sort through some of the issues. But I also knew that these experiences come at their own costs, and I wasn�t entirely sure that I wanted to deal with those.
A couple more hits off the vape had me feeling that, yes, this was a good time for an experience.
I�d cultivated my own mushrooms and don�t have a scale. I�d previously had an experience with five small �B+� mushrooms that had worked out well, so I pulled out three larger ones and went for the saltines and peanut butter. I managed to eat two of them before deciding that I�d hold off on the third until I knew how what I�d already downed would affect me.
Then the wait. I ate them around 6:00 PM and then figured I should probably make my sister�s birthday cake before I was rendered unable to perform such activities. I took about forty-five minutes to prep the cake and wash up the dishes, and then I retreated into my bedroom to build up the anticipation. I was beginning to feel altered. I wasn�t yet seeing anything differently, but I had the sensation that I soon would be. I had a bit of the pre-trip dread and was feeling some nausea. Yes, most definitely feeling altered.
Forty-five minutes passed, the nausea was getting to me, and I was becoming impatient. Still feeling nervous anticipation, I packed the vaporizer with a fresh sativa and drew in slowly. It�s amazing how quickly mushrooms come on once marijuana is introduced into the mix. The light immediately took on a different quality as objects in the room got brighter. Things weren�t moving around too much yet, but as I looked at my dog, I saw her coat shimmer and shine in a way that was intensely beautiful (imagine a husky with German shepherd colors and you�ve got my dog�s lovely appearance). I found her breathing intensely interesting, the way it made her muscles ripple and swell under her fur. I went over to pet her and felt the same intense connection, the same burning love that I�d felt for her the first time I�d spent time with her whilst under the influence of psilocybe. The feelings were almost overwhelming. Things were going well and I was beginning to feel the euphoria creeping up.
My sister got home and a family meeting was set up via the web cam, with my mom, brother, sister-in-law and two-year-old nephew on one side and my sister and I on the other. I felt so happy to see my family and laughed at all of the silly things my young nephew was up to. I�m normally intensely introverted and a bit frigid, speaking in one-word answers (when necessary) and avoiding most interactions. My sister had to take a phone call and she left me with the family (and the microphone headset, which I found nearly impossibly to operate under the conditions).
Talking to my family felt wonderful and was far easier than it typically is for me. I smiled and laughed a lot, not feeling self-conscious about the �dour� personality I�m often intentionally upholding for myself. Talking to my family felt wonderful and was far easier than it typically is for me. I smiled and laughed a lot, not feeling self-conscious about the �dour� personality I�m often intentionally upholding for myself.