DOSE:
30 mg
sublingual
Morphine
(ground / crushed)
BODY WEIGHT:
107 lb
I had gotten hold of a 30 mg Morphine Sulfate tablet via a mix-up at the hospital where I work; a patient refused his morphine and my instructor told me to put it in my pocket, and she would show me the �wasting protocol� later. She forgot; it was the sort of situation that is never supposed to happen, and I thought an opportunity like this would probably not arise again. For two weeks I kept the pill on my desk; I knew I would try it eventually but I wanted a nice free evening when I wasn�t going to see any of my friends or boyfriend, all of whom would frown on this sort of thing (both the questionable way I had acquired the morphine, and the use of narcotics in general).
So finally a night arrived where I was on my own, and didn�t have to wake up early the next day. The pill was still in its plastic bubble wrapper, but crushed, because we had been about to put it in the patient�s NG tube when he refused it. I carefully opened it and allowed the crushed pill to fall under my tongue. I washed it down with some herbal tea and then licked the wrapped to get any remaining powder off. I wasn�t sure how strong I expected it to be; I am almost entirely opioid na�ve, except for 7 hydrocodone over a year ago (and not all at once, I took them on 7 different days) and weigh about 48 kilos. I take no medications and had drunk no alcohol that day.
I took the pill at 9 pm and settled into my bed with a nice spacey playlist and some art supplies; in the past, I�ve enjoyed drawing while taking hydrocodone and I thought this would be similar, that I could pass the evening hours in a happy fog, drawing. I�ve enjoyed drawing while taking hydrocodone and I thought this would be similar, that I could pass the evening hours in a happy fog, drawing.