DOSE:
T+ 0:00
100 mg
oral
Modafinil
(pill / tablet)
T+ 0:00
1 cup
oral
Yerba Mate
(tea)
T+ 12:00
smoked
Cannabis
BODY WEIGHT:
60 kg
Background:
19M, 60 kg. I have tried the following drugs in the past: alcohol, weed, MDMA, LSD, psilocybin mushrooms, kratom, LSA seeds, ritalin. Lately, I've been smoking weed on most days, I'm otherwise quite healthy, I work out nearly every day and I also sleep at least 8 hours nearly every day.
Why I wanted to try modafinil:
A week before this experience, I had the opportunity to try Ritalin XR 10mg. As I�m a really unmotivated student (at least in the last few months, due to online school), I really liked how motivated and productive Ritalin made me feel, so of course I wanted to do it again (or something similar at least). As I can�t get more Ritalin in the foreseeable future, I started researching alternatives and that�s how I found out about Modafinil. A few days later, I received my Modalert 200mg pills that I�ve ordered online.
09:00 - I wake up a little groggy as for some reason I didn�t sleep very well that night. I remember that I�m supposed to take my moda in the morning, but I�m a little hesitant about it, because of all the nasty side effects mentioned on the internet. Anyways, I take half a pill, so 100mg, get out of bed and start my day.
09:30 - This is when I think I start feeling it. It�s a very weird feeling, because it lacks the mild euphoria and other telltale effects of Ritalin (the jaw feeling, constantly having to do something with my arms etc.). I�m into cold training, and it felt very similar to the feeling I get if I instantly drink a coffee after getting out of an ice bath. A calm high plus 100% wakefulness. I also notice that I�m hungry, so I make myself some breakfast (I suspected that I won�t be able to eat anything that day, but in fact my appetite was even higher than it normally is).
10:00 - After drinking my morning yerba mate while reading the news and watching a youtube video, I proceed to study. I made myself a list of things to be done. I notice that as soon as I start doing something, I get instantly engaged in it. For the next 4 hours, I was studying very effectively with frequent bathroom breaks (I drank a lot of water, so that�s probably why, but I�ve read elsewhere that even if you don�t drink water, moda makes you pee a lot, so who knows).
14:00 - This is when I start feeling tired, so I stop studying. Maybe if I were to take another 100mg, I could have continued, but as I did way more than I do on a normal day, I thought that it was enough.
I noticed throughout the day that my mood was slightly better than it normally is, but it was nothing compared to any recreational drugs I�ve tried. Maybe if I took a lot more than I did, it could be euphoric, but honestly I don�t see any recreational value in this substance, so it�s addictive potential seems really low.
Later that day, sometimes for 10 minutes or so, I felt this comedown lethargy and tiredness, but as soon as I did something, I felt wide awake again (which at this point was a little uncomfortable). I am generally very calm the whole day, but I sometimes get worried that I won�t be able to sleep at night (the reports of moda keeping people awake for 24 hours even scared me a little).
21:00 - I meet with a friend of mine, we smoke a joint together, go for a walk, then I go to sleep at around midnight. I don�t think I could�ve fallen asleep without the weed and I didn�t sleep well at all.
Is it worth it?
Honestly, I don�t think it is for me. Of course, it made learning easier and it made my mood a little better. But at the same time, we�re talking about a drug with some potentially nasty side effects (fortunately I didn�t even get a headache, but still) and a drug without studies on its long term effects.
And honestly it did not help me study that much. If I were to go running and meditate before studying, with some caffeine added to the mix, I can get similar results to modafinil without having to take it. If I were to go running and meditate before studying, with some caffeine added to the mix, I can get similar results to modafinil without having to take it.