I first took adderall back in my first year of college and loved it. The intense focus, sociability, euphoria, the works. I didn't start taking it regularly until I got a script for 20mg XR. As we all know this stuff can be quite the slippery slope...
20mg turned into 40mg which turned into 70mg per day over the course of about 2 years. This was until this past December, when I tried microdosing LSD for the first time. It immediately changed my perspective on my use/abuse of prescription amphetamines.
The same day of my first dose, I stopped taking adderall. I gave away the remaining pills and wanted nothing to do with it... That was, until early February when I justified my use for school and continued using. Not using like before, a normal 30mg a day dose (15mg IR 2x daily) but using nonetheless.
2 weeks ago, I stopped cold turkey yet again. This time I am completely resolute on never going back.
I started microdosing under the Fadiman protocol right after to help me gain perspective on my dependence on this drug. I have only positive things to say about my experience with using microdosing as a TOOL to help me understand my dependence.
I want to emphasize that using microdosing in this regard is used as a tool, not another drug to lean on. Through this journey it has showed me the benefits of living my life as me. Not some "better" or "enhanced" version of me that I thought I saw as myself when using but rather just me. Microdosing is not a forever thing, it is a take as needed thing.
I am me and I love me for me.