Ive been telling myself for half a year that im addicted to gabapentin. Truth is every time i stopped i felt really shitty for like a day or two before i dosed again. After about 6 months (1 yr now) of dosing, no doubt i should feel shitty. Imagine being drunk all day every day for half a year?! Gabapentin is so fucking benign though, damn.
The kind of shitty future i had built up in my head was that id feel like garbage for a week, and then not feel 100% for weeks after. I couldn't handle the dysphoria of those 1-2 days, the thought of enduring that for several more days while having to socialize with ppl around me was just terrifying.
So i stayed on for months, thru some depression and the fucking quarantine...
And then summer got really busy. Couldnt hop off
Then this last month i just got so fucking tired of it all. Self diagnosed ADHD, decided to make lifestyle changes. I tapered off gabapentin slowly at first over a week, then quickly jumped down to 100mg like once a day before sleep. No withdrawal during the day!!
Bromantane and taurine has been a massive help. But im realizing the withdrawal was largely my own anxiety over the possibility of a bad withdrawal. All i had to do was fucking taper.
TL;DR TAPER YOUR FUCKING NARCOTICS BROH