Hi people! First time posting, but I have been reading this sub since I quit cold turkey back in late November. I’m a mid-40 year old male and quit a 1.5 year habit at 15-20 gpd. Today is day 70 for me (week 10). My history with kratom dates back to 2007, but I never took multiple doses per day every day until summer 2016. Before that it was just recreational fun now and then. Never had a problem stopping and I even took a break for a few years. I know some of you have taken way more for way longer. But, my quit experience has been long and awful nonetheless and I’m still not 100% but feeling way better. My last dose was November 28th and I had a pretty terrible December and January. Not only was I kicking kratom, but I also quit a chain vaping habit (nicotine) as well on the same day. I wanted to quit my last two hard addictions completely and decided to do it together. Interestingly, the nicotine withdrawal was easy this time. It was the kratom withdrawal that kicked my ass. I've dealt with RLS, aches, pain, constipation, depression, lethargy, anhedonia, emotional breakdowns, etc. I even caught the flu in December and bacterial bronchitis in January. I have dealt with a lot since I quit and felt just hopeless and worthless through it all. The worst part, though, was the insomnia. I didn't sleep much until about the 8th week. For what seemed like forever I only got about 2 hours of sleep each night IF I slept at all. I was miserable. I tried a number of products suggested here but nothing worked for me, unfortunately. For the past couple weeks, though, I’m managing to get 5-6 hours on a regular basis with no help from products…just natural sleepiness. I’ve never had issues with sleep in my past so this was all new to me. I still wake up in the middle of the night and it takes a while to get back to sleep. But, at least I’m getting enough sleep to function during the day again. I absolutely do not crave kratom or nicotine anymore. Actually, I haven’t craved since the first week of my quit. My relationship with kratom is OVER…I’m never going through this again.
Anyway, I went nearly 2 months thinking I would never recover from this experience. I’d been in such a dark space. But, then I turned a corner which happened to be later than I wanted. But, it did happen and I’m incredibly grateful to be at this stage finally. I’ve been coming back to myself more and more and even started getting interested in my hobbies a little more again. This quit has been a long and painful process for me and I know it is for some of you as well. All I can say is: HANG IN THERE BROTHERS AND SISTERS! It is so worth sticking to your quits and recovering from this addiction. You will get through this and feel much better one day. It just takes time. YOU CAN DO IT! My thoughts are with all of you.
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I want to say that I might not have made it through if it wasn't for this place and all the people posting here. I learned so much and never felt alone during this experience. I'm grateful for this place. Thanks to everyone who has shared. It's meant a lot to me.