LSD Bike Ride: Euphoria Returns After Stimulant Abstinence

Quality: positive. Return to earlier psychedelic joy after stimulant abstinence.

Highlights

First trip after stimulant abstinence. Euphoria returned after a period where it seemed permanently gone: a significant marker of neurochemical recovery.

Cognitive

Predictive coding observed in real time: While cycling, distant objects cycled through stereotypes (object to generic person to homeless to threat to normal guy to chill guy) before the brain confirmed identity. Classic LSD effect made consciously visible for the first time.

Time-period merging: 70s aesthetic bleeding into the present through music. Both in the peak and the afterglow when I felt like a Jefferson Airplane concert was playing in the background. Temporal boundaries dissolved through musical association.

Near-controlled ego dissolution: Ability to consciously regulate the depth of experience by engaging or disengaging the PFC. Rare skill noted.

Sensory

Nicotine at petrol station: Caused explosive amplification of color and sound: ACh release dramatically increased sensory gain across all modalities simultaneously.

Park environment transformed into jungle or enchanted forest. Focusing on plants increased trip intensity: plants morphed into buzzing insects then into interdimensional figures.

Closed Eye Visuals

Own face burning in hell, orange hellfire. Transformed into neutral images of own face in random everyday situations, which reduced anxiety. OCD/BDD pattern manifesting visually.

Soyjaks in clouds and in CEV: The brain's fusiform face area applying the most-rehearsed facial template to ambiguous shapes: predictive coding in action.

Social

Zero social inhibition, the opposite of first trips. World felt like GTA5, social rules revealed as arbitrary constructs. Felt more natural than threatening.

Main Observation

Disillusioned sensitive young man archetype first clearly identified. Most problems stem from hypersensitivity leading to complete desensitization as a defense mechanism, losing motivation and joy in the process. Psychedelics temporarily remove the defense, revealing the original state.