DOSE:
T+ 0:00
40 mg
insufflated
Methoxetamine
T+ 0:20
20 mg
insufflated
Methoxetamine
T+ 0:40
20 mg
insufflated
Methoxetamine
T+ 1:00
8 mg
2C-B
T+ 1:00
16 mg
2C-B
T+ 5:00
2 mg
Etizolam
T+ 5:00
10 mg
Pharms - Diazepam
BODY WEIGHT:
76 kg
I feel like I might be saying this a lot recently but apart from a fairly harrowing and difficult experience on another psych and dissociative combo recently, which was far more immersive and far stranger, this one was in a sense completely different, and also in many ways so much more powerful because of the consistent lucidity of the experience.
Some parts of the experience as ever, defy words, and although at the time I wondered if I would change forever from this point forward, as ever the descent back from the higher consciousness of the psychedelic state brings back all the illusions and trappings of sober life, and the accompanying doubt in the existence of anything beyond this thinly veiled illusion of the material.
In any case, firstly, some backstory. I was not in the best place mentally. I was not in the best place mentally.