Greetings psychonauts
This is the trip report of yesterday, 16/3/2018. I wanted to try lsd for some years now, and kept getting excuses because of my anxiety disorder. But thats okay, I waited for the perfect set and setting to arrive and as I was very nervous because I had never tripped before, only with a heavy dosage of space cakes and (I have to say that high is nothing like the lsd high), so I decided to take 1/4 of a tab. I asked for oppinions on this on the r/Psychonaut section,and almost eveybody said I should take more because I would barely feel anything. Well, fornutately, I had an intense afternoon. Even the guy who took the 1/4 with me and had already took one tab said it was more intense than he expected. I had been very nervous the days before, and struggled to put the acid in my mouth, but when I did, all the anxiety vanished. T + 40 minutes and I started to feel diferente. A head high started to arrive, and my body felt weird too. Daily tasks were as if they became new, and I was laughing more than I ususally laugh, the music was also sounding better. I felt happy as I havent feel in a while. After that I got creeped out by a ventroquilist doll on the tv,, and also by pictures that were "looking at me" but the anxiety quickly washed away. Im gonna tell the whole thing because lots of things happened, but the mist importante: i think i had some really good therapeutical benneficts. My head was clear to think about the problems of my life, even tough i has some strong anxiety aat some parts of the high, and i had some kind of epafanies about houw I should live my life and changes i needed to makethat I could even correlate to philosofy i had read, for exemple, why people get away from intense situacions, the necessary role of bad and evil in the universe, all those thinks we can think about and agree but need to be in these states of consciesness to feel and understand.
I strongly recomend these dosages of LSD to people with generalized anxiety disorder. It will help to understand your problems and how to deal with them with a diferente set of eyes, and to feel intensely happy and acomplished in a way you can only understand by trying these substances. Dont get me wrong tough, it can also be very overwhelming. There were some parts of the trip I wanted it to end, but i think the benneficts surpass the difficulties. Everything has a price.
The day after i feel kinda depressed. Im back to the routine and feel kinda empty. But it was worth it