To anyone who thinks it's impossible, don't believe that voice, the voice of indifference, the voice of your disease, the one we all know who says we can't get through withdrawals or maintain sobriety because of your past.
It took me 12 years of getting 30-60 days (never more) if I was lucky at a time. Then I hit a bottom so low, I was so tired of being locked up, tired of ODing and being saved with Narcan.
I surrendered and hit my knees and cried in a cold jail cell locked up by myself. I allowed myself to cry and ask my higher power for help. I knelt with my hands on the wall and cried until I was sure God heard me.
I haven't looked back since that day and have been clean since. I know it's not a "long" time but believe me when I say this is nothing short of a miracle. And if I can do this, it's possible for you too.
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