Hi everyone been browsing this community for a while and finally decided to try MDMA. My first time was different to expected so I'd appreciate some insight.
I bought the drugs from the Dark Net Markets, they were orange dominos 200mg and I tested them using 3 different reagents - all showed that it was MDMA. I also had all my supplements ready to reduce neurotoxicity.
Last Saturday at 7pm I took half of the pill on an almost empty stomach. I felt absolutely nothing for almost 2 hours so my friend recommended I took the other half then and said "oh I had that once, you'll roll super hard in a minute". I took the other half at about 9pm and then I only felt something mild for a few hours from 9:30pm-1pm.
I was organising this event for 300 people for my 18th birthday and any damage had to be paid for by myself so I was quite stressed. Maybe the cortisol and stress stopped me from feeling any huge euphoria?
What I was feeling from 9:30pm-1pm was that I could go up to and talk to anyone and I kept saying "really appreciate you coming" - I felt very appreciative of people. Although, I didn't feel any big euphoria or tingling or jaw clenching or anything. Just felt bit more positive and motivated and time went quick. I also felt less social anxiety the next couple days.
So there goes my first time that wasn't great. I haven't seen many posts on how being anxious/stressed into the roll can severely reduce the effects so was wondering whether anyone else has had a similar experience? I only weigh 50kg and taking 200mg of pure MDMA I would expect something huge!