I was on a two week etizolam binge. 2mg a day sometimes more sometime less sometimes every other day. Down to the last one 2mg pill and I haven't even taken it. I met Dimitri multiple occasions the last few nights. He's gone now too tho, along with all of my other mind altering substances.
Dimitri told me I am not ready. Anyways this is something I wrote yesterday. Around this time 24 hours ago exactly actually, give it a read and let me know your honest options on where I'm at and everything. I should mention I've been taking multivitamins and eating and exercising since first usage, bizarre how quickly it caused me to get off my lazy ass and do something. Enough rambling, here you go.
Dabbing with Dimitri
Smoking weed impairs memory, makes experience more hazy and confusing. Best taken with no THC in system or waiting an hour or two after smoking. Smoking after dimitri experience is good - but smoking before is a no-no.
10mg = dipping your toes in the waters. This will show you what the substance really has to offer and you can chose if you want to go further. This in between limbo before breaking through can be a little uncomfortable for some, myself included. Temperature is key.
15mg = close your eyes and watch the geometric patterns and sacred patterns flood your vision in a tunnel like fashion. This dose seems to be similar to the 10mg, not full ego death just tilting on the edge, like an envelope about to fall completely.
20 - 30mg = breakthrough. There are no words to describe where you go. It is a different dimension, but where? There are all these entities that tell you things, things I'll detail later if I can remember. It's like a 7 minute dream, waking up and little recollection of what happened, remembering NONE of what happened hardly when weed is smoked anytime 2 hours prior to vapor.
In conclusion, it seems like the entities wanted me to stop using all substances, Dimitri included. That'll have to wait until after my suboxone taper (taking two .7mg a day insufflated), and even then I doubt I'll ever stop smoking weed completely, maybe just use it as a rewarding tool. I was told I overthink everything and that needs to stop or it's going to eat me from the inside out. I was told I'm not ready for Dimitri. I will try again in a better setting. I need to be healthy and happy to have a healthy and happy experience IMO. I'm taking the steps to get there. My mental health has been deteriorating for a long time but I've finally addressed it and believe I've done something that'll change me forever.
Anything I write is fiction, should be looked at as fiction, completely fictionally.