The experiance was insane..Nothing I have ever felt before (except when I well in love with a girl im now with -- felt something like that). I thought im god of freedom, love and friendship, I felt I can do whatever I want. We had insane chat and cozy chill. Turned off the lights, lit up the fireplace, and turned on some tech house (i actually never listen to that kind of music, but it was insane trip..) Never had a chill like that before. Took 0.5 of super mario greens at 21, then the next half at 23 or so. Magic experiance. Took weed couple of times during the breaks and stayed up until 4 am. Then slept like a baby. Actually i cannot describe the feelings i had, but i know you guys will understand it. It was THE BEST Saturday in my whole damn life. I very very needed that "restart" due to stress at work and everyday bullshit and negativity. That bullshit inside of me, coffee, sugar, alcohol and other negative products were eating me alive. This restart was the bomb. My mates were chatting and dancing, I felt like dancing too, but i stayed on a super cozy sofa and just sat smiling. Random moments i fucking loved stretching, my GF made me a orgasmic palm-finger massage. Oh god it was so intense..Also I took my best poop in my whole damn life. I've read someone on reddit actually told to use wet baby wipes -- mate, you are GENIUS! I had almost 0 thoughts at the peak, and literally lived in the moment. Super insane feelings.
When I came outside to the balcony (we were at a SUPER SUPER cozy loft styled apartament) and saw the cars driving. It was magical. It seeemed that everything is controlled by some simulation. Cars drove at the same speed, with the same space in between each other and they made the same drone like sound. Then I realised what if the true reality is like on drugs and the simulated reality is the one where person isnt on drugs. Strange right? But it was truly magical.
So I want to thank You all guys for loads of love and information here. You are the best community in the world. I love you all and I love MDMA. Due to much information regarding drugs, I think they are becoming safer. Its due to people that like to release this information making it safe..I will probably roll again in a month or more with my lady this time. But I do know one thing -- FUCK alcohol. Im totally 100% saying NO to it. FOREVER.
EDIT: IM now in a super nice afterglow. I dont have depression but I have depressive thoughts atm that should go away in a few days. I've changed my mind concerning eating too. Will try to eat healthy. Too much junk food in my brain and stomach. MDMA is not only about getting high as fuck and being in the euphoric moment. It changes peoples minds and the directions they are going. This is the best part.. Love You all.