This was my first experience with psychedelics and I felt blissfully euphoric, as if the childhood version of myself overtook the very essence of my being. That version of myself that was always amazed at just exploring and observing the simplest of things.
I felt strangely emotional and was reminded of how beautiful it can be to actually feel happy for no particular reason, but just for being alive and in the moment.
For the last 6 years of my life, emotional numbness has deprived me of friends and any social contacts. I hope that through this experiment I will be able to lift that numbness.
I plan to keep taking 10 to 15ug of 1P-LSD every 4 days and see how this pans out in the upcoming weeks. Even on this first day, the contrast between my usual flat emotional state and this gentle wave of appreciation for simply existing was striking. It was not a trip in any traditional sense. There were no visuals, no confusion. Just a quiet sense of reconnection with something I had forgotten I ever had.