I thought about waiting a few months before posting my experience with Ibogaine. I decided to do it now because I want to write it down as much for myself as well as for anyone else who may benefit from this story.
First my history, I wont bore you with the car accident, oxy, eventual street buying aspect of things. I'm sure you can figure that out on your own as it's all too common. Eventually I end up on the Methadone program for 2.5 years...I went from 100mg daily down to 30mg but it was easy because I was supplementing with a Heroin/Fent mix which is pretty much everywhere these days. I only went to the clinic enough to keep from getting kicked out so once every third day I took my Methadone.
I so wanted to stop everything and I began looking into Ibogaine. I read every article, post, forum I could find. I reached out to various people via PM for info and began calling clinics in Mexico. The first few told me they would switch me to a short acting opiate for 4 days, give me a flood dose of Ibogaine on day 5 and send me home on day 8. The people I'd spoken with who'd been through an Ibogaine clinic said this sounded rather aggressive for the habit I had. Then I ended up speaking with a clinic that said "if you are telling us the truth, we need you for 18-21 days" Their price was also very close to the other clinics...a little lower than most and a little higher than some but I knew this guy was telling me the truth because he was the only one who said 3 weeks would be required if I wanted to do it right. He also said if it took longer, he would not charge me for the extra days.
After getting over the fears of ending up in the back of van and held for ransom or having my organs stolen, I landed in Mexico on April 14th. They picked me up at the airport and took me to a very nice home where I was treated like family. I also went in hot. Snorted a gram of coke and H on the plane. Needless to say the next day I was in bad shape. I'd also been off the Methadone about 3 weeks by this time. They gave me a real oxy 30 to take the edge off and some time later an Ibogaine microdose. I took a microdose every day for the first 3-4 days. I also met with a doctor on the first day and we went over my medical history etc. During this time I had no withdrawal symptoms. I felt good. I could hardly believe it. I didn't feel great but def good. I did go through a little puking and a mild case of the runs. They explained that I had toxic stuff in my body and it had to come out but believe me when I tell you it was nothing like withdrawal or detox in a stateside facility. Not even close. I was up and moving. They also pushed me to push myself. They took me to the beach and got me in the water to wear me out etc. which def helped with sleep. At night they'd give me a mild benzo to help me sleep....that never happened to me in a stateside rehab and I've been to some of the famous ones.
On day 5 it was time for the 1st "flood" treatment. They connected me to an EKG machine and put on a blood pressure cuff etc. The Nurse stayed with me the entire time or "trip". It was very dark. Not scary or uncomfortable, just dark. It felt like I was walking with my ancestors. We didn't know each other but knew we were blood. It was just strange. When it was over, I felt fine. 4-5 days later I got another flood dose and this one was awful and wonderful. It was like watching a movie of my life. It would stop at certain instances and a voice...call it God, your Higher Power, or what I chose "Mother Earth the true creator" but was just most likely my conscious and subconscious mind coming together to ask "why did you do that?" At first I lied and the voice said "you do know who you are talking to right?" It was so crazy! I felt shame and embarrassment and the voice said "it's OK...just think and be honest....why did you do that" The answer was "I was selfish and wanted something I wasn't supposed to have" I cried for two hours and I laughed for probably 2 hours because it wasn't all bad. I'm sure everyone's life has had good parts and you see those too. In the end, I made peace with my mistakes, bad decisions, deaths of friends and family lost to drugs etc. The next day, I was wiped out...not at all like the first trip. I was down for the day, completely exhausted mentally and physically. It actually made me think about declining the third flood treatment 5 days later. They told me I wouldn't feel like that again. They said I'd be energized after the third and final flood treatment. I decided to trust them and they were right. The 3rd trip was mild and all about the different paths I could take in life and where they would lead. In the end the voice said "you know which one to choose......choose it and go" So I did and it was over. I felt great afterwards.
I stayed another few days and then flew home. They set me up with a life coach. The first few sessions, one of which I had before I even got there are included as part of the program. Here is the thing to understand. It's not a magic bullet. I know I need to change my life or "walk the new path" I saw in treatment but I'm now prepared to do the work.
In the end, I never went through withdrawal, I have no cravings....I actually have an aversion to dope. Just thinking about it makes me want to throw up. I've been clean now since April 15 when they gave the oxy I mentioned so I am getting close to 30 days and I've never done that...not in 12 years.
If you are questioning the effectiveness of and considering the use of Ibogaine, my advice is go for it. Please do not expect your experience to mimic mine exactly. I'm told it is different for everyone but I've never felt better. I do get tired easy and they said that would happen. It might be an issue for a few weeks but it's better than being a slave to whatever it is you are hooked on.....it's a small price to pay. I can assure you I am not a shill for any clinic, and everything I've just posted is exactly what happened to me. As far as I am concerned, this was the best thing I've ever done for myself. Just PM me if you have any questions.