DOSE: T+ 0:00 7 mg insufflated Heroin (powder / crystals) T+ 0:15 12 oz oral Alcohol - Beer/Wine (liquid) T+ 0:29 13 mg insufflated Heroin (powder / crystals) T+ 0:50 12 oz oral Alcohol - Beer/Wine (liquid) T+ 0:56 5 hits vaporized Cannabis (plant material) T+ 1:42 .75 oz oral Alcohol - Hard (liquid) T+ 2:00 12 oz oral Alcohol - Beer/Wine (liquid) T+ 2:30 16 mg insufflated Heroin (powder / crystals) T+ 2:40 .75 oz oral Alcohol - Hard (liquid) T+ 2:40 12 oz oral Alcohol - Beer/Wine (powder / crystals)
BODY WEIGHT:
168 lb
Background Information
As a substance experimenter, I would describe myself as significantly versed. I�ve spent more than ten years demoing a long list of stimulants, opioids, opiates, dissociatives, phenethylamines, tryptamines, etc.
My history with opioids and opiates is reasonably extensive. I�ve dabbled with a fair share of pharmaceuticals and clandestine productions, via just about every route of administration possible. In the past, I did develop a tolerance to this category of substance, but outside of that particular stretch of time, my use has been relatively infrequent.
The intention for this experience was based in hedonism. I wanted to enjoy a day off, one of my first in a long while, by adding an extra layer of laziness, euphoria, and relaxation.
My setting for the day was my home, which has a great yard and is generally a comfortable space. I was alone for the entirety of the experience.
I had no tolerance to any of the substances ingested besides alcohol. An average day around the time this experience took place includes 3-5 drinks in the evenings. I smoke flower cannabis most days days.
The substance used in this experience was procured from a vetted source. No red flags were raised when I conducted some basic reagent testing. I believe the substance to be pure and true. Prior to this experience, I had insufflated two small �safety test� doses of 2 and 5 milligrams. The idea behind these was to gauge the potency of this batch of material. My findings on these initial trials led me to believe the dosages in this experience would be both sufficient to produce the desired effects as well as within my margin of safety.
Another part of my safety calculations was the addition of alcohol. I�m well aware that mixing CNS depressants can be tricky and risky business, especially opiates/opioids and alcohol. I personally felt comfortable with my dosages from prior experience and attentive monitoring of my heart rate and general physical condition. In the case of an absolute emergency, I had my partner Kai available to come to the rescue.
The material consisted of small [
T + 00:00 [10:00 AM]
Without much ceremony I finish crushing up seven milligrams of material until I�m left with a fine light tan powder. Insufflation is painless and mostly flavorless; unsurprising for this substance at this dosage. Immediately upon insufflation there is nothing noteworthy going on. In the absence of initial effects to document, I use the time to walk down to the basement to retrieve a load of firewood for use in the living room.
T + 00:09 [10:09 AM]
Returning upstairs, I find that I�m warm, with a hint of sweat on brow. The wood I hauled isn't heavy enough to cause this physical reaction when compared to a sober state. The extra sweating is of no concern to me. I�m far more concerned with staring out the windows into the beautiful autumn skies. Beams of sun pierce the murky grey clouds that have blanketed the sky all morning. The warmth on my face is completely blissful.
T + 00:11 [10:11 AM]
A heaviness works its way from the top of my eyelids to the tips of my eyelashes. A knowing dopey smile crawls across my face as I sink a little deeper into the couch, increasingly immersed in the present. The podcast I had tuned out is suddenly more relatable and interesting.
The chill I felt earlier, with the temperature at 61 degrees Fahrenheit inside the house, is gone. Suddenly I feel exactly the right temperature. It�s not just the temperature though, everything is starting to feel �just right�. As the experience comes on in earnest, my thoughts slow down. I cannot, or will not, dwell on anything besides my immediate reality. Every breath in, nourishes me, every breath out, soothes me. I�ve left the normal version of the universe and entered a version my notes describe as �deep breath heaven�. Each breath brings a swelling rush of euphoria, pleasurable shudders that feel like each cell of my skin is taking a relaxing breath, shaking any worries and concerns.
T + 00:15 [10:15 AM]
With delight, I take my first sip of first beer for the day [4.8% ABV 12 fl. oz.]. As the cold inebriating liquid passes down my throat, I feel that all the world is beautiful and a deep love of everything saturates my brain. Everything, absolutely everything, feels so nice and good. Simplistic words, but entirely accurate. Nice, good, nice, good, and nice.
As my mind continues to alter my interpretation of the world and my life in it, I�m reminded of how I feel when a benzodiazepine relieves my stress. The effects of benzos are something I generally find pleasant and therapeutic. Although not necessarily euphoric; as a person who is sometimes burdened with anxiety, depression, or heavy thoughts, I do find benzos especially enjoyable. The heroin is providing relief from these types of thoughts, but doing so without the haze and sedation I often experience with benzo relief. This feels like I�m more clear than I am when sober.
T + 00:20 [10:20 AM]
My resting heart rate is 60 BPM. I note that the intensity of effects has been pretty steady. There have been no large peaks and valleys since I first felt the substance coming on. Although not a perfect translation, I�m accustomed to correlating intoxication to the Shulgin Rating Scale, thus, I�d rate my current intoxication at a + intensity.
T + 00:29 [10:29 AM]
Having satiated my desire for a safe initial dosage without overwhelming myself, I insufflate an additional thirteen milligrams. I�m hoping to kick things up from this mellow intensity to something more powerful.
T + 00:32 [10:32 AM]
The ability of my eyes to focus is altered. The ability of my eyes to focus is altered.