DOSE:
30 mg
oral
4-AcO-DMT
(powder / crystals)
BODY WEIGHT:
80 kg
This was my first time having an experience with 4-Acetoxy-N,N-dimethyltryptamine. I have had a fair amount of experiences with other, more classic psychedelics. My last experience had been a break-through dose of smoked DMT.
The setting was my fianc�s (Q) and my apartment. I had prepared a comfortable, safe spot in the guest bedroom, so that my fianc� could go about her business without me disturbing her.
My set for this experience was generally positive. I had high hopes for this new compound, especially since it isn�t illegal where I live. There were two factors which caused me slight unease though: I had developed a very strong cold two days earlier, and was still feeling rather sick on the day when I had planned to take the 4-AcO-DMT. I wasn�t sure if this would interfere with the experience, but as it turned out, it wouldn�t interfere at all. The second issue was that my fianc� has never taken any drug apart from very low doses of alcohol, she has never even consumed cannabis. While not against my interest in psychoactive substances, she nevertheless has a certain degree of suspicion towards it. I have never tripped in her presence, so this experience would be the first time for me to consume a psychedelic with her in the same place.
This was however part of my reason to want to do it there and then. My intention for the journey was to show her an example of what it looks like to be under the influence of these substances and to show her that there is nothing to be afraid of. The second reason why I wanted to embark on this experience was to better be able to work with and harness the side of myself which Carl Jung would call the Shadow. There is a man about 50 years older than me, let�s call him �S�, who had caused me a great deal of emotional pain when I had been about twenty. It had been very difficult for me to face what had happened to me, and I was resolute to finally face these painful memories and process them for good, so that they would no longer burden me.
So, all in all I had my work cut out for this journey, but I was very hopeful as to what it would bring.
2:00 pm: Since 4-AcO-DMT is legal where I live, I obtained it from a legal source and therefore I�m very confident of its purity. I carefully measured out 30 mg of the white powder using an accurate jewelry scale, which can measure milligram increments. I carefully measured out 30 mg of the white powder using an accurate jewelry scale, which can measure milligram increments.